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Much work to be done

A realization came to me in the groggy moments of waking, I am exactly where I need to be. August 24, 2011 TaurusĀ (4/20-5/20) Even though your time is completely your own right now, there is no time to waste. Just because you don’t feel pressure from outside forces does not mean that the speed at which you travel effects only you. Other folks are depending on you to put your best foot forward and fight…

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Things don’t work out as planned

The guy who has been working on my house had a 200 lb slab of wood fall on him and now he is out of commission. As he sat at the dining room table petting Loca – I told him about Loca’s backstory. How she came to me when Arlene was very old and she loved Arlene but she thought one day Arlene would die and she would be top dog. That was how she…

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Stand over there

What would you do if you were me and you were on a mission to change the parts of you that are learned behavior and learn the parts of you that are fundamental to who you are, to who our species is, to who you should be. This morning walking through City Park, a thousand thoughts vied for attention in my mind that ran the gamut: Ugly and rebellious, wtf? Need to figure out a…

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Cheb i Sabbah

I was looking up Cheb i Sabbah since I’m going to be in San Francisco and he is an Algerian DJ who spins records in the Mission District. We saw him a few years ago, and had an awesome time at Bollyhood, the club he had become a regular at on Thursday nights. I first learned of him when Tatjana brought me a CD back from Istanbul. Sadly, in searching for him, I came across…

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Boarding school at home

I don’t understand boarding school because I believe it’s our duty and joy to have our kids at home. But the last napless days when I knew that Tin was so dog tired that he had better sleep, I have to say I have resorted to the military tactics that are probably used in boarding school. Mainly, I knock hard on the wall between our bathroom and his room three times as I watch him…

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Can we go round in circles?

I am back to hot flashes, back to feeling like I am Orca the land whale, and back to feeling as if the days of feeling spry are so far in the past they might as well be in another universe. It’s good to know that menopause just doesn’t go away. After ten years of peri-menopause and finally menopause now post-menopause seems to be the same roller coaster ride of aliens having abducted the sexy…

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Go figure

Two years old – Tender or Terrible? Fifty two years old – Tender or Terrible? During tod-zilla’s nap (yes he finally took one) a thunderstorm erupted and when the kettle drum of thunder rolled over the house, I heard him say over the video, “Mommy” in that little voice of his. He didn’t wake up. Then he said, “Mommy” with the next roll of thunder. But he still didn’t wake up. When he did finally…

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The antisocial media

I was reading through Facebook and came across an entry from a friend who was taking her daughter along with six other girls out for the day. After struggling through four days of Tin’s defiant mood and my single-parentdom, I wanted desperately to hit the DISLIKE button but there wasn’t one. When I’m glazing over the FB entries and trying to reconcile how I have no time for much in my life anymore, I wonder…

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