My Synthroid dosage was changed for the seventh time in seven months and the latest change has made me feel as if I have an army of ants trying to get out of my body. I’m hyper, hyper. I started smoking again because I can’t even deal with myself. I kept waiting for the half life of the drugs to drop off so that I can see a change, but hyper I remain so I’m…
In the past few days you can readily see Venus and Mars alongside the smallish full moon. This morning from the terrace off my office, I went outside pre-dawn and saw more planets all in a line. November 2012 presents all five visible planets, although only Jupiter and Venus are clearly visible all month long. Mars appears but briefly after sunset, and the planets Mercury and Saturn before sunrise. I woke early to light the…
Last night and this morning I looked up at the full moon, which is supposedly the smallest moon of the season, and saw Venus and Mercury so clearly that I didn’t believe my eyes. Isn’t that the case, that wonder and mystery is presented to us every day and we at first don’t believe what we are seeing. Daily life tends to make miracles seem like flights of fancy. A friend wrote from India where…
Last night, I went to a parent teacher meeting at Waldorf and one of the teachers gave a presentation on gift giving during this crazy season. She had put together gift baskets because she said kids love to be busy, they love to be around their parents, and they love to do creative things. So one gift was a sewing box complete with pin cushion, scissors, thread. Another was a games box filled with a…
It’s the Tuesday after Thanksgiving and already the season is rushing in to blow us out the doors. Too much to do, no time to do it. I sat at my desk simultaneously juggling four projects that are begging for attention, let alone looked at bills that need to be paid, emails that need to be responded to, and calendar items that are stacking up three by three. Tin’s Adoption Birthday is fast approaching. December…
I went out to walk the dog, notice no plural, this morning and it was a breeze. I was able to walk Heidi off leash and she listened to all commands and we passed other dogs and I didn’t tense up or get vexed because of another dog in the midst. I took a big deep breath. And then a nag came in and I felt sad that Loca was not with me, and happy…
I walked down the street to the Zen center this morning for meditation and learned that they are in the throes of trying to buy a lot and build a new facility uptown. Uptown, I thought, this is not good. When I needed the Zen of meditation, I learned that a few blocks from me was a place to provide exactly what I needed to work through my inability to meditate at home for long…
We headed back across the lake today to bring Loca to the country to live with my cousin and his zoo of sheep, goat, cow, bull, horse, donkey, rabbit, and puppy. What a wonderful day it was to see Loca running with Jake, his new friend, a six week old black lab puppy. We took Tin’s friend with us and the country did us all good. I’m forever thankful for this land, for the roots…
I Clear water in a brilliant bowl, Pink and white carnations. The light In the room more like a snowy air, Reflecting snow. A newly-fallen snow At the end of winter when afternoons return. Pink and white carnations – one desires So much more than that. The day itself Is simplified: a bowl of white, Cold, a cold porcelain, low and round, With nothing more than the carnations there. II Say even that this complete…