What if I am in your life because I was meant to be here to fall in love with you and what if you are in my life to love me and what if all the meaning in the world that can be wrested is that we love greatly one another?
The day’s auspicious beginnings – walk Loca and see B with Taylor – she’s telling me about something innocent, a discussion amongst friends, but I’m hearing something else – the underlying messages that are being sent are registering on my face till B asks, “You okay?” Yes, I say, a little teary. Good god, stop the madness I think, so I walk good and long through the park, and go good and long through my…
Mom had a cigarette burn in the corner of her eye. I asked her what up with that and she said she was trying out Chinese torture.
City Park was a buzz with kids and parents and SNOW – yes that’s right – they brought the snow machine out when it was something like 78 degrees outside and humid and made snow for the kids on Christmas. Odd, huh?
I wrote much earlier about the hand shaking phenomenon – that there are those lovers in your life who make your hand shake and those are the ones you have to watch out for because they got you – whatever that is, they got it. So my friend gets a dozen roses and a box of chocolates sent to her and her hand is shaking as she takes out the card because she thinks it…
G and E came over and we had a PJ party. G brought Fatty Patty who we dressed up and put the antlers on and put her in the window as our Christmas decoration. We had all the Ab Fabs that I had bought for a friend as a Christmas present but never gave her. We ate chocolate and drank champagne and danced on the stools. The Russians spies came by on their scooter looking all…
Went by CoCo Hut and Mother Nature was there sitting outside in a chair – children, men, and women surrounding her. “Hi sistah,” she greets me. And Slim comes behind her turning up the volume on the television saying “I love me some westerns in the afternoon” and I said, “Rifleman, Bonanza,” and he says, “Oooh, I’m not that old,” and I laugh laugh laugh.
The song got to me – kind of unsuspecting. I was going along and then boom, out of the blue, the lyrics that have been in my head are coming from you. So I went to sleep that night, and at 3AM I woke on my right side, holding you, smelling you, I could feel your hair in my face, but at 3AM in my grogginess I realized it was a pillow I was holding…
I remember I am a work in progress, growing, changing and becoming more every day. That is my affirmation this morning – this pic is Christmas Eve morning – the sun coming up again outside my window.
I’m going offline to figure out how to be disconnected. Last night Gul said I look like a flame in my red dress with my red hair. Flame on!