Archive for September, 2007

The isolation of a small town

Tuesday, September 25th, 2007

In a community email loop I hear from home constantly – the latest rumble is concern over a convenience store entering the spot where the Circle K was pre-Katrina that has been sitting vacant since the storm. There are those who are concerned about the element these places attract, then those who claim those claims are racist, and then there are the persistent NIMBY’s and the persistent “why can’t we all get along?” – but what is most disconcerting thousands of miles away is the persistent “small town” thinking that radiates from these communiques.

New York Sound

Tuesday, September 25th, 2007

Whereever I have been – Istanbul, Shanghai – nothing compares to the noise that bubbles up from the streets of New York – it’s the sound of taxis – in Rome, it’s a moped, in Shangai, it’s the buzz, in Istanbul, it’s constant chatter – but New York noise is taxi noise.

A persistent dreaminess colors my days

Monday, September 24th, 2007

As the driver pulled away from D’s apartment in old Shanghai we made our way across town and my mind began to wander – through a veil of sadness and anticipation I watched the cyclists maneuvering through the cars, the garishness of signs everywhere in Chinese characters, the tall tall tall buildings sprouting from the ground and going up and up and up, and a sea of faces and my mind wandered and through the sea I saw a familiar smile and face coming up to the car as we were idle in traffic and I realized it was Lilly, coming out of the crowd with a box of moon cakes for me – I opened the door and kissed her a thousand times – sweet Lilly – and then the door closed and I was back inside my bubble of thought and remembrance – a time warp already taking over my senses – a longing to be here and there at the same time – a persistent dreaminess that is coloring my days.

Like a boy

Monday, September 24th, 2007

I keep thinking about what the I Ching master said to me – that I’m like a boy but I’m a girl – a complaint I have heard throughout my life. It vexes me somewhat – but reminds me of the first fortune I received when I moved to San Francisco:

Confucious say a woman who tries to equal man, lacks ambition.

My shopping trip to the old city

Sunday, September 23rd, 2007

I bought a big dragon kite for Jake, and Mao bags (so cheap) for mom and me, and two tea cups with Chinese landscapes, puppets for Steve and I, a jade ring for my middle finger (to stop the spending!), one jade ring for me and one for Fatmalicious to wear on her thumb as she is want to do with her rose gold band, and I could have kept on shopping – I wanted the big red lanterns to hang them everywhere – D and I wanted to get the large stone statues – he wanted the dogs and I the elephants but they are so BIG and HEAVY – they cost as much to ship as to buy. The Tibetan shop could have kept me in there for hours. We had pearls strung at Ms. Pearls – I selected with D’s expert eye – two strands for me, one long and one perfect – a long strand for Jerri as a thank you for watching Arlene – pearl earrings for all my great nieces – and they threw in a Chinese purse.

Then we went to the fabric mart and I took my Nanette Lepore pants that make my ass look so great and had three pants made exactly like them, a denim, a brown and a black pair – and two suits copied from my Piazza Sempione suit – one khaki with a pale blue pinstripe and one grey – so CHEAP – unbelievable – but I had to leave my pants and suit behind – so now my wardrobe in New York shrunk even more.

Pearls of the Orient

Sunday, September 23rd, 2007

I went to see Ms. Pearl yesterday with Dimitri and bought pearls for myself that are so lustrous and beautiful I don’t want to ever take them off. I purchased pearl bracelets for my friends.

The I-Ching Master

Sunday, September 23rd, 2007

Went to a housing project of sorts with Ling-Yi, my translator of the past several days, a young woman of uncanny language ability, and yet, always a woman with her own agenda, which is never transparent but always apparent, and so we went into this old building which felt like an institution – we met late, I was one hour late to be exact – and we entered the almost hospital-like building where the old man resides and he was reed thin and tall, with long slender fingers that had a slight tremor and his glasses were thick and black framed – he was ready, an entire treatise in Chinese characters written on a small notepaper based on what I had given her yesterday on a small piece of paper – a date, a time, a style of my writing to guide him.

And here are his interpretations – my own personal I-Ching:

Of the elements – I am lacking wood – but this will not affect my life adversely – I can offset by tying a red ribbon to my house plants – by painting my toe nails red – by wearing red jewels on my wrists like a bangle of red (this gives me pause).

I know how to protect myself.

I worry too much – it’s easy for me to grow quite emotional based on my worries.

I’m very pretty – I’m pleasing to the eye.

I’m very good at talking – writing – I have my own style of writing and talking.

BUT I’m tough – not like a little girl – more like a boy.

I know how to deal with difficult people.

I have good connections – network – I have a socializing network – a lot of socializing going on.

I have great ideas about life – but I’m always doing this and doing that.

It’s great but even when I have to work, I’m stressed from work – his career advice: go for politics, work for a big company, or start my own business.

My whole life I have had problems in love – I always want to leave my hometown.

I will have success with my career when I’m older.

The love problem is that I married too early. And I can’t get what I really want.

Sometimes I am slow in making a decision – usually things are so difficult to start but then they get easier – but in the beginning I can’t deal but gradually they get easier and easier.

There have been quite a lot of big changes in my environment and love life in the last couple of years – I have moved from one place to another place – my environment and love have been in upheaval.

I have faced competition with work and I need to avoid getting involved in the competition – I will have the advantage by avoiding the competitive pressures.

I am talkative – but sometimes the advantage is to not talk too much.

I must be careful about such things as invoices and receipts – careful about losing documents because it will cause difficulty for the whole thing – The Whole Thing.

I’ve been working hard – and I try hard – and no matter what, sometimes I can’t get what I expected. My career advice is not to change careers right now.

Use red, purple and orange because they are very good luck for me.

For the plants in my house – tie a red ribbon or hang red from the green leaves.

For good food – eat hot pot, bbq, and red wine – eat spicy but too spicy – and don’t eat too much food.

In autumn and winter, eat lamb, red fruit like tomatoes and grapes, and hawthorne – which was the berry on the stick that we ate yesterday in Qingdao not crab apple like I thought.

It is not good to wear sunglasses or bangs.

On my computer – use wallpaper that is a rising sun or horses running.

In my house – beware of plumbing – have a good water system – beware of water seepage – which is not good.

Keep your bathroom door shut – in winter especially – and use a heating blanket.

Drive a red or purple car.

Best period of time for you is 9AM to 3PM.

Best calendar time is May 5th to August 6th.

Be careful about my teeth.

I have very good luck in love between the 8th of Aug to 7th of Oct – then lucky again from 6th of Dec to 5th of Jan – I’ll be lucky in love.

In the second period of lucky love be careful of spending too much money – too much has been spent.

Fortune – I have a stable income, but to get what I need I need to make the extra effort – I may make a high salary or income but I get it from a long time at the same company or I might write a book as an extra effort but it will be hard work and my money from the secondary pursuit will always be secondary and more work than my primary work and will not be as good as my first work.

Marriage – you have a lot of desires so not easy to get married early because you will change too much if you marry young – if you want to attract a lover wear black or blue – this will make your more attractive but wear these colors for attracting a man not for luck because those colors are red, orange and purple – black and blue is attracting to a mate.

The man who will be your lover has S I T J in his name somewhere – there is a show of these letters in the name – they are good for love.

Food – these foods can increase your glamourous-ness and attractiveness – Boiled Egg, Crabmeat, Nuts – they contain hormones that I lack and increase my attractiveness.

Luck – From 2000 to 2010 I will work at the same job for one company and my career will be more and more stable as time goes on and I will have no worries about food and clothing – my income will later expand to be more but after 2005 lots of socializing will start getting better and and better – but although everything at first is difficult for me to start, it gets easier and easier.

I will make money in another city because I can’t make money in my hometown – and I will travel to make this money – and some years when I can’t travel I can’t make as much money – but mostly I can.

Be careful what I say.

I will make later in life, at first not so much, but then more and more so no need to worry.

In 2007, after February 4th, I got more and more busy with my career, but my breakthrough in my career will come and I need to be careful of signing documents because I’m still young and could make a mistake.

When I make friends I need to be more discretionary because I’ve called some friends with some who talk bad about me behind my back.

2008 is the year of the Rat after February 4th – this is a good luck year for me – love is coming in this year – I will meet someone who will help me – BUT I need to take things slow and easy – and let it run its own own course – easy does it – don’t think to one extreme or another.

— my dog – Loca – is no problem for me – but I need to allow the door to close in my bedroom to my bathroom and move the kennel – or leave a light on in there that is orange in color. The bath and kitchen are related to my personal fortune and I need to have a kitchen light that is orange as well – don’t use white or another color for this light – use orange.

Drink black tea with rose petals and whenever possible use the color red – red rose buds in my tea are good for me.

With a man I’ve recently been involved with – the relationship is entirely up to me – if I want to pursue and orchestrate I can make it happen but this man lacks fire – I crave fire – this man cannot provide fire for me – fire is intelligence – red fire. This man is attracted to me because of the fire in me.

Keep the color of my hair red – this is a good color for me.

Burn more light bulbs – bulbs not tubes – the more light bulbs lit around me the more they show off my intelligence – have as many as possible – never use long tubes – one bulb lights up one part of my intelligence but I have so many parts that I need to show as much as possible.

This is the highest knowledge of the I Ching – these are the physical changes I will go through.

2 men in my life – the one I was recently with and the one I was with for a long time (the second one was a Rabbit) – both I have devoted time to but they make me tired. They make me weary – they deplete my energy. The one I was with recently – a Tiger – if I want to be with him, I can be, it is entirely up to me to make this relationship work not him, as I will do all the work for this relationship, but it would be better for me to meet someone in the year of the Horse. This person will not make me work for the relationship.

My best period of time to meet a love interest is between the 5th of May and the 6th of August – a person born in the year of the Horse – ’54, ’66, ’78 – this person will have the letters S I T J in their name. It might just be one of these letters.

For love – pick a Horse first and a Snake second – the Snake is ’53, ’65, or ’77.

I don’t need to move physically for work but I do need to travel quite a lot – some years I cannot travel as much as I should which affects my ability to make money.

To have a child in my life – I could adopt – or have relationships with other’s children – better in the winter to seek a child – a child also should be a Horse or Snake, or Dog if I want them close to me – but if I adopt a child I must stay in the same place for one year because I need that first year of stability. I have had one boy in my life – born in 1999, a Rabbit, and another young boy, born 2003, a Sheep or Goat, close to me.

Remember the Chinese thinking – for humans we make the plan and effort, but God makes the decision.

The view, baby

Sunday, September 23rd, 2007

And so we went to meet Al, at the fabulous restaurant, where Tom Cruise dined in the little minuret tower, and the executive chef was a friend, and so it was all great, and in the Turkish via Austrailian way, it was all glamourous, and yet, the view is what made it all fabulous – sitting atop this antique building and looking at the bay of Shanghai, and the born is young and old, hip and historic and youl can’t recreate it even if you try.

Last day in Shanghai before you go

Sunday, September 23rd, 2007

What can you cram into a day when you got home at 3 AM and had four hours sleep? Well, let’s see, there was an errand to a $6000 a month apartment to drop off something, then there was a breakfast in an historic restaurant known throughout not just Shanghai, but Asia, for its dumplings, and a bridge there that is crooked and purposefully so, so that ghosts can’t cross it, because ghost can’t negotiate corners, or so they say, and there were koi about as big as my thigh, and then people with umbrellas and smiles, and dumplings galore, and in a certain part of the world life looks familiar, and yet not, as we sat eating yet another dumpling stuffed with ___, and I looked out at the Chinese, the Asian, building slopes of a roof that was Oriental in the familiar, and behind was a modern tower – always here in the China the old and new and it’s juxtaposition is never seamless and always jarring.

Graveyard Love

Saturday, September 22nd, 2007

A friend tells of her Pakistani lover – a tale of friction and lust – he has another in Pakistan who calls him at each elected prayer hour – she has graveyard love for him – when he told her he was leaving, she tried to take her life – he feels responsible.