I love traveling and meeting with different people both known and unknown because it’s this collective unconscious that you accumulate and take back with you. A woman who admires me for my business acumen now teaches me how to ask for what I want in personal relationships. A man who has always been my confidant gives me lessons in the other “sex” and informs me that I know nothing about the male psyche other than I don’t posses it. Colleagues left and right remind me of why I love my job, because they are a part of the equation. And then you speak to someone who has had your ear and not and you learn that you were “fucking up” at one point but granted redemption because everyone gets a hall pass at some point, and you know that you have arrived safely on the other side from darkness to the light again. And those you lost along the way were expendable.
It’s all good – but in the end as much as I seek other’s advice for all that I undertake – in the end, I am me, and I’ve got to continue to give voice to me. The tendency I have to doubt my needs or underestimate their value in personal relationships is the part that has been my sinker – but now of course, I am finding out how to say, I need this, and let myself be vulnerable in ways that I’ve always allowed in business but never in the personal realm. I need this. You’d be surprised how hard that is to say.