Health is on the inside

I ran into a fellow dog walker this morning who told me that health is on the inside. She should know she’s a nurse and had worked for a time in cosmetology. We were catching up – she had gone through a lot of job crap years ago and had been listening to my job crap over the past few years. I told her I am trying to unwind from being wound up and when I listed everything going on in my life she practically yelled, “Rachel, this is why you have alopecia!”

Yes, I know.

Alopecia – when your hair’s falling out and you can’t make it stay
Alopecia – when you look to the left and you are going bald
Alopecia – when you look to the right and you are going bald
Alopecia

My hair stylist was singing me a song he wrote about a friend of his who went totally bald. He was singing it to him but the guy did not see the humor. Frankly, I didn’t either at the time. Now, meh, I’m going bald. And so what else?

I called a friend to help us find a home for Loca. Her nephew was killed in a motorcycle accident. People have bigger problems than me. But pathetically, my problems are all my own. As I gathered up the photos to send her of Loca – my heart broke – relocating the family dog. And so what else?

I’m beginning this week by divesting myself out of all of the obligations that I have stumbled into and I am seeking the path of not a stress free existence, but rather one that makes more sense the path that has got me here.

A neighbor told me that Sean Payton had an affair with a Saintsation and got her pregnant and that is why his wife is in Dallas, and he is here living with her. And so there are some people who think Sean is getting karma payback for that transgression rather than for the not acting on the bounty issue.

Since I have such telescopic vision, I always wonder about these things and karma is something that I have always paid dearly for. I was the child who couldn’t steal the piece of gum because right afterwards someone would steal my wallet. Karma is a bitch.

So I ask you in moving home three months before this city was wiped out and taking a footstep along the path that has led me here – a roller coaster ride not unlike the Zephyr, my most feared ride at Ponchartrain Beach – I ask you, have I paid enough yet for my transgression. And if not, what else?

Don’t ask.

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