Dinner party last night had too much red meat and wine and therefore there was no sleep for the weary – I think I actually slept two hours last night – the black circles under my eyes are proof. My incoherent nature midday was further proof. Sleep is so underrated – it can change everything and make you less weird. Like I broke down in Walgreens today passing the GI Joes, but I think I…
My Pilates instructor playfully calls me Kitten and Kitty and doesn’t understand why I screw up my face when he does – oh come on, where’s your smile? he chides – I grimace at him. After Pilates yesterday morning, L came with me to get my dining table and coffee table and chairs – he then sat in the back of the truck, Jethro style, and held the tables while we inched home. Once in…
A nice chat with S to catch up on work and personal issues and she tells me she is trying to keep her chin up – I told her my thoughts today were about fear and what a counterproductive emotion it can be. Her son sent me a drawing of a saguaro cactus with my name on it – I have it taped on the wall. It seems to me all the revelations that have…
A large alligator, possibly more than one, has been discovered in the Bayou. A dog got eaten the other day. Watch yourself. Last night’s celebration was just what the doctor ordered – fun – exciting – T and G were awesome bookends – and the oysters and champagne just kept coming. How incredibly blessed am I to have met both of them and even later in the evening yet another – the night was wonderful…
I’ve been feeling familiar tugs that keep me in a kind of whirlpool or (as some might call it cesspool) frame of mind. I had a heart wrenching dream about V last night that has lingered in my thoughts all morning – oddly W was a grown up girl and the baby was a boy – it was very surreal. At mid morning I pulled Blue over to stop a rampage of thoughts that appeared…
Joke to start your day – S caught up with N, L and me and the dogs to get us to sign the petition against the cluster mailboxes this morning. The post office in all their infinite wisdom has decided that they shouldn’t have to deliver our mail to us in our houses because there is too much “debris” to walk through to get to the mailbox because of Katrina – so they are going…
A reporter sends me a card – “I kind of wish we had backup singers” – says she thought of me when she read it – I wrote her back and claimed I am starting a solo career instead of seeking a group. Another colleague who is now off to Africa to volunteer in an orphanage sends a card with an earnest message “wanted to say, though stressful at times, I will miss working with…
Despite what anyone says I am ready. Today was a good day – I bought a dining table, chairs, coffee table – I found the perfect gift for little A, the toucan returned with a better peck, the day fell into serendipity pretty much to the end. F says its aplomb you need to master. Or as the master said himself, grace under pressure. N pointed out the little ducklings in the bayou and said…
In a nutshell – I kissed a toucan today and wondered why its beak was so hard – and then it dawned on me that it was a different species – and maybe that is why its bright plumage attracted me but its heart was strange and foreign – and it could be I am more damaged – but I see my potential a lot clearer – and you know what happens when you start…
Rolled out of bed from yet another sleepless night except last night had some wonderful dreams that at least woke me up with a smile. Bounded out the door with the Bean to do a solo walk since L doesn’t have his boys and N goes to school early on Thursdays. Arlene has developed a new habit of pulling to the LaLa when we are getting close because I have been stopping every morning to…