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In a nutshell – I kissed a toucan today and wondered why its beak was so hard – and then it dawned on me that it was a different species – and maybe that is why its bright plumage attracted me but its heart was strange and foreign – and it could be I am more damaged – but I see my potential a lot clearer – and you know what happens when you start connecting the dots – a narrative unfolds – mysterious then foreboding – parallel universes – suddenly questions have answers – and the dawn breaks through the darkness – like an injection of adrenaline that was being tapped while the shock of the new paralyzed motion – if one more person says the word soulmate I am going to crush them – no one will ever mate my soul for godsakes – can we not own one thing without having the urge to merge – does form follow function – who gives a f – is unfocused talent as good as disciplined mediocrity – do I write to understand myself or to be understood????????

I cried huge tears today when Cliff told me he is leaving and moving to Memphis – my mailman – I love him – now he said he can’t live here anymore. I told him New Orleans needs him. Don’t go. And he said only “Rachel” – and I said I would never speak to him again.

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