We are all looking for nirvana right? Nirvana means letting go. I feel like I’m still working through the mechanics of my pendulum, which used to be so far out of balance in how much I let others influence how I responded to myself and then swung radically into the people be damned mode. I find myself now moving towards equilibrium but I still have setbacks where I feel I have lead shoes on and can’t let go, can’t take flight. Honestly, it’s these times that I tend to dwell the longest looking at myself, listening to how others respond, trying to find if there is a message in the bottle or one of those “capara” moments as my father used to say, which I always thought meant “whatyagonnado” but I think it has some other bizarre meaning like transferring your sins to a chicken. Seriously. And chickens can’t fly.