In the grand scheme of things, we all hope to be smooth operators – sort of negotiating our way through social circumstance with aplomb – but in reality we are constantly rethinking, kicking ourselves, or basically grimacing at the last transaction we just had. What goes on? I mean really – I went to a gumbo fundraiser last night and room after room held some person that held in their gaze/conversation/thoughts something to power through [I should invent a cocktail party video game – you have to make it through the room without getting someone riled up – but I digress] – what I really mean is that I had about 20 conversations that all felt like they were layered with hidden meaning and agendas and then came back to the LaLa with friends where I was bouncing off the walls – too much energy for my own body – and still operating under the guise that I had it all together – which apparently wasn’t the case at all.