May your force be with you

My friends were over last night and left me with an Argentinian saying – algún culo va a sangrar. Translation: someone will get fucked in the ass.

Yes, you may say, tasteless. My friend recoiled even mentioning the saying – she said it always repulses her, but you have to admit, it is one of those sayings that pretty much needs no interpretation.

We were speaking about college suicides, university sex scandals, taking a lover in lieu of a husband, raising kids, teenagers and buying a car in no particular order and the upshot was, at the end of the day someone is going to get it up the you know.

What?

I was in Bear Valley with a friend of mine who now lives in San Diego and I said I am unconventional and he said, “No you’re not. You’re married, you are middle class, and you live in Marin.” Boom. He sank my battleship. But I wonder why was I living that conventional life? Why was it that on my journey through marriages and multiple cities, why had I stopped at that moment in my life to live a conventional life?

I don’t know.

I will tell you that if you do not live your truth – algún culo va a sangrar.

Maybe it’s the mark of maturity to fly your freak flag – I think I have ventured out on the precipice many times to get mine hoisted but sadly shimmied back, getting splinters in my ass the whole way. But now I think I am ready to walk the plank – upright or cross it dancing a jig.

If you don’t own your power, then who does?

Stop at any moment and make an assessment – my child is running like a banshee in and out of the house to play with his friend, the puppy is in the kennel barking to get out, Heidi is under the table trying to find her spot, and we are getting ready to go see a movie. Meanwhile, a friend on FB posted that a friend of hers was killed in a car accident in New Orleans – here, just two days before Christmas – imagine her family and her friends – imagine how the next days, weeks, months and years roll out.

Gone in the blink of an eye.

I made a reservation for Gulfport and invited Sty to join me. Life is too short. I want my toes in the sand. I want to start the new year in the arms of desire.

We all have the power to live as if we were dying.

May your force be with you.

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