Answers to my questions
So as 2013 comes to a close, I’ve been receiving answers to some of my questions. The answers have come in the form of riddles sometimes, and my peace entering 2014 is to dwell in this uncertainty.
I offer up the first question – what is love?
“… sex is the consolation you have when you can’t have love”
~ Gabriel García Márquez
Matters of love have stood on their head for me this year – and I’m of the opinion now that once love occurs between two people, it does not fade away, it changes as circumstances change, but it is always there – that little flame – waiting for a new wind to blow it stronger.
The next question – what am I supposed to do with my one precious life?
Today as I headed out in the pouring rain to get to my yet again cancelled Zumba class I thought about what I am doing and where the meaning is going to come from, where the money will flow from, and whether I am making sound decisions. And then I remembered that I can’t know anything about what my decisions will mean tomorrow, only what they mean today.
“But he did not understand the price. Mortals never do. They only see the prize, their heart’s desire, their dream… But the price of getting what you want, is getting what you once wanted.”
~ Neil Gaiman
The last question – what is the meaning of life?
Three people died today – maybe more in the world – not three people I knew – but connected to people I know – two young adults home from college died in a car accident and one young woman found dead in her dorm room – they died today. And while I’m filtering all of the information that is coming at me on this rainy, cold winter day, I have to remember this, I woke up and went out in the world, alive, breathing. The meaning of life is to live it.
