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It’s been quite the week starting with returning after midnight on Sunday night to Tuesday’s latke extravaganza (24 dozen gluten free and vegan latkes fried and eaten) and menorah lighting to Wednesday’s kindergarten presentation complete with latkes, candle making, and dancing the hora, to Saturday’s homecoming celebration honoring the four year anniversary of the first time I laid eyes on my son to his friend’s birthday at the Monkey Room to a playdate uptown.

I came home and cleaned the bathrooms! I changed his bed and cleaned his sheets! Next up, wash my sheets, dust and vacuum and mop all the floors. Yee ha! Someone’s got to do it.

But I want to talk about giving right now, because that is the reason for the season and I was most impressed at Thanksgiving time when The City of Love church was seen (and interviewed by me) paying for people’s groceries.

This afternoon, on the drive to his last playdate, Tin unprompted said that he was grateful that his friend Adrian had come to light the menorah with him, and he was grateful that Tatjana had given him Belle, and that he was grateful about Heidi. I told him that I had been grateful today for hot water that poured out of our pipes as I was taking a shower – oh what a feeling!

I spoke with another mother today who has thyroid problems and she spoke about the lethargy that plagues her and I told her how it affects me. I was always this person who could give give give of myself until I just utterly wore myself out and then I was pissed off at the world because nobody was taking care of me. Then I lost all my energy with this auto-immune disease and now I’m so content to sit on my sofa and read a book or watch a good film. I luxuriate in resting and going to bed early. I love nothing more than not doing all the things that I could be doing these days.

I’m grateful that I give to some but more importantly I give myself permission to just be. It’s incredibly freeing and has been a long time coming. So for those of you just getting your holidays started (I’m in cruise control for the rest of this season), kick back and curl up with a good book and a cup of tea and remember to give to the most important person on your list – yourself.

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