Fortuna’s wheel is spinning TOO fast

Up and down on this life’s roller coaster and I wonder to myself, was it meant to be this way? Yesterday, the mail brought a stalker’s letter from some guy in prison who saw me in the paper who said, “I consider you one of HIS greatest gifts to me.” Hmmm.

Then a missive that stopped me in my tracks – COLD – stop, not pause, just STOP, COLD. I called a friend, she said, “Thank god …, Thank god … ., and I said, yes thanks, FOR WHAT? OMG.

I am summoning courage, I am summoning the POWER OF NOW, I am summoning the will to continue on, soldier on, marching on – from whence will this courage, soldiering, marching come from though, I wonder.

A friend posts this on Facebook:

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Wondering how things will be from here on out….
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Name Withheld “Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you.” -Emerson
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Clarity tells me that I will make the most of this – that this is an opportunity – my gut tells me OH NO, NOT AGAIN.

And so begins Sunday, godless Sunday.

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