There are no coincidences
L gave me a New Yorker cartoon right after S and I split up that had a man and woman sitting around a living room and the man looks up and asks “Did you ever have that baby you wanted so badly?” – in my Thomas Mann design workshop I incorporated that along with other mementos into a broach that had W at the center but the tag line from that cartoon on the side.
When S called me and said, “Rachel, do you still want that baby?” and I said yes – I thought the most important part of this call was that I said yes without hesitation.
I’m still waiting to hear from my baby’s mama – it would be a tough decision for her – but I think that this is all a pipeline that comes from saying yes to the universe – I had gotten trapped in a world that says no – no to enlarging your life, no to change, no to so many things – I felt my wings were clipped.
Yes is the word I want to tell the universe. Yes, I do want that baby. My entire tribe wants me to have this baby – everyone is waiting for what happens next.