You can only be young once. But you can always be immature – Dave Barry Had a heart to heart with L, man of mystery, told him I’m not up for prime-time, said I am fickle these days, he said no worries, he is fickle too – so we are going to go get a gelato and be neighbors when I get back from Arkansas – which feels a whole lot better than trying to…
So P came by to look at my windows at the LaLa and he’s going to take care of them. Then E, the electrician came by, and goodness he is cuter than I even remember, and he looked at the Ventahood and told me what to do. But then, D, came by and he is the man – he totally got the house and knew what was going on and said that all the people…
Sometimes steps forward are in a positive direction just because they are not backwards. Someone asked me this morning who I haven’t spoken with in a few months how I am, was I over N – and I was like N who? And I told her that S and I have been talking about the possibility of us again and that had us both perplexed. Sometimes doubt means don’t and sometimes doubt means wait and…
The Bean and I went for our first walk together in over a week – it was cool outside at 6AM and the bayou was gorgeous with the clouds reflecting in the water. We passed Boo who had dove in to chase a nutria with his mama yelling at him to get out. Then I went for a long bike ride that was fantastic – I mean it was other worldly – I rode back…
Went to throw away my vote Saturday morning and then picked up G to take her to Bacchanal to get some wine for a dinner party she was going to – we hooked up with M there and decided to do a tasting which was actually some good wines, then of course, others came – A being the completion of the group and everyone had to buy the table a bottle and so we stayed…
When I picked up the Bean I noticed the vet had lost a substantial amount of weight but I didn’t comment on it because I was busy with getting her settled and greeted and then showing him my leg where I was attacked by the dog – leaving the house yesterday morning one of the two big German Shephards attacked me in the hallway and bit a chunk into my thigh. The dogs are being…
[I Step Outside Myself] I step outside myself, out of my eyes, hands, mouth, outside of myself I step, a bundle of goodness and godliness that must make good this devilry that has happened. Ingeborg Bachmann
Sunday I’m beginning to believe I could live in a cardboard box and be fine. Arrived in wet, cold Boston and had a wonderful, fabulous dinner with J – sometimes a meal with her is like something out of a feel good movie – it’s always perfect and she remarked that I am back on the planet again – thankfully. And we talked about A through Z as we always do, and when we got…
I fell in love with a man who looked like “he walked out of a Patagonia ad†who spoke in riddles and confused me just enough to take a magic carpet ride with him and he says he loves me, but is that love? Before my man spoke in absolutes and did not bend to meet me but when I left he cracked and he says he loves me still – is that love? –…
Bloody Motherfucking Asshole poetry has no place for a heart that’s a whore and i’m young and i’m strong but i feel old and tired over fired and i’ve been poked and stoked it’s all smoke, there’s no more fire only desire for you, whoever you are for you, whoever you are you say my time here has been some sort of joke that i’ve been messing around some sort of incubating period for when…