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Had I known which way this day was going I would have stayed in bed this morning – but no, in the spirit of every day is a fresh new day, I hopped out, took Arlene to walk around the bayou with L and his dogs. Came home, spoke to my group about the new year and rah rah rah – let’s get fired up – etc. – and then it started: went by to…
Mom and I were talking about the state of things and she kept asking “how are you?†and I snapped and said “I’m trying to tell you!†– the question grates like chewing glass no matter who asks it. Anyway she seemed not to notice even though I apologized for being testy and said, “Honey, I can remember coming to your school when you were in the 7th grade and watching you in the hall…
W asked me to define bizarre yesterday afternoon – if he had been older I would have said uh, you are tangentially connected to the bizarre right now – the bizarre context in which we are all connected. So as it stacks up right now – S and I spent yesterday with poison spears traveling cross country and by evening were able to call a truce and should the decision be that I walk from…
Working out in the gym I was inundated with images of Paris Hilton wearing a tee shirt that said “I’M HOT” on the front and “YOUR NOT” on the back. Isn’t that appropriate – Your Not – if you’re going to print it you might want to check the spelling. S called from SF to tell me he is there with K showing her the city and having a bad day – he also said…
I think I know and he’s not yet 44. I am moving towards resolution with all of this – the complete separation of property, the severance of heart and mind, the giving up of dreams stacked against too many odds. L calls this my last hurrah, the ultimate acquiescence, but I don’t think so – in war, they blow the horn to charge, and to retreat. And both have honor in them. One last pass…
A day that was more reminiscent of 2005 than I cared for it to be. Spoke with N this morning about all the ins and outs of finishing LaLa and how much and how long. Then S sent email that he does want the LaLa but he also, natch, wants all these other concessions as well. Then spoke with E about how I am handling all of this and she gave good advice. S gave…
Another beautiful January day here in the rotten crescent city. H, one of my neighbors, got fired today from his job of 23 years – his breath smelled like alcohol at 9:30AM. He was an expert swimmer who swam through the muddy Katrina waters to get people food and water. He helped a lot of people during the evacuation. His unsung hero medal is a pink slip. Lovely huh? S is stuck on the LaLa…
Three days into the New Year and it already smells different. I sniffed the air coming in the open window the morning of the first day of the year and it smelled different, then yesterday and today the air just seems to be improving. Could be that we are enjoying outstandingly wonderful days weatherwise, could be that I feel more in control over what is happening than I have in the past months, could be…
New Year’s Eve 2005 – An Eventful Year (ahem) 2005 is almost at a close and all I can say is THANK GOD “this has been a year of too much unraveling, restlessness, catastrophe, change, and uncertainty. The star I see every night through my window is already up in the night sky and my wish tonight is different than usual – it is a wish just for me – tonight it is all about…
I’ve been missing playdate in the mornings because Arlene is on bedrest. I should be on bedrest with this cold even though I had the first night of real sleep Thursday night. Of course, with good sleep comes good dreams and those are hard to shake in the morning. I lay in bed in a kind of daze not wanting to enter the day and now I know that I was coming down with something…