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The meditation of the Tao te Ching today is #11, which I think needs a little more meditation for me. Even though I get what it is trying to say, I also know that the center, the emptiness, the inner space are all areas that are not easy to access. #11 We join spokes together in a wheel, but it is the center hole that makes the wagon move. We shape clay into a pot,…
I don’t have much peace in the morning anymore because I wake up and try to figure out what to do to help my mother and I obsess about what might come next and what came before. I’m trying to find a way to go about every day while my mother remains in limbo in the ICU – will she get better? will she have to stay in the hospital? – the sad reality is…
I want to believe that zoo’s are around to help people learn about animals so that they can help them. Is that true? It’s been so long since I’ve been to a zoo because honestly I have a hard time with all those animals behind cages, even fish zoos tend to get me a little down. So yesterday I took my niece and our 14 year old visitor to the New Orleans Zoo, which is…
Yesterday, Loca and I got up and headed out to the park. Our long journey began with an errant turtle who had lost its way from the lagoon and was about to get crushed as it crossed the street. I picked it up to bring it back to the lagoon but noticed that a fishing line had gotten caught on it and so then began my search for a knife or scissors to free the…
Mortal sins were created by Catholics to educate believers on acts that might destroy their state of grace – the seven no no’s are “Lust”, “Gluttony”, “Greed”, “Sloth”, “Wrath”, “Envy”, and “Pride”. I have one more to throw into that fire – “Ingratitude”. How come that is not on there? In our discussions and dreams about our child, T and I realize there is much we might not know about how this person will develop…
My aunt told me that a neighbor of hers was adopted and that her father loved for her to sing and while he was dying, she sang to him.
I went to the late night visiting hour to see mom and make sure she went to sleep a little more comfortable than I had seen her midday. I walked into a gaggle of girls, nieces and sister-in-laws all lined up around her bed. Which is good. In the center was my niece who chose to lecture me and turn away from me because of my affair – now mind you, she met her own…
From my favorite poetry site: [the aquarium deserted now,] the aquarium deserted now, this is the song at dusk I write in the notebook: strange skin not quite seal not quite dolphin inchoate texture like something you forget something you didn’t even see the first time old shoe sentient being with others in watery caves lights off with motive & mind up a ladder mouth moving quixotic mind quick flick who are me who haunt…
Okay, a friend whose summer started with a distant relative throwing herself from a window said she was wondering if this summer is worse than last when she had three relatives die in a row and spent her summer vacation going from one funeral to the next. I ask myself the same question – why does it seem as if I turn to the right and my friend went home to check in on her…
I’m trying to take those deep breaths right now. I got up and went to spin class because I need to exercise to control the running dialogue in my brain. Then T and I went to see mom and visit with her for the mid day time – she was in a poor mood as you might suspect. Afterwards, we swung by brother’s house and visited with my two nieces that were – oh my…