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[written a few days ago – today’s Fat Tuesday] I’ll share a secret with you that might not have been obvious at the time. In the summer of 2011, I considered taking my life. I would look outside at the bayou and dream about putting actual stones in my pockets and entering the bayou (and taking pills to ensure I didn’t come out). That’s how hopeless my life seemed to me then, that’s how trapped…
I have gained and lost perspective so many times in the past two months it is hard to know which way is forward and which way is back. Rudy or we have come to know him around here as #STFURudy because of the comments – “Boy, Tin is going to have a hard time adjusting to this smaller place” to “Man, you better be glad you’re selling this place and getting out.” Then there was…
The storm has hit the Southeast or at least that is what it feels like. How about it’s Mardi Gras and nothing stops Mardi Gras in this city and then I’m moving and that is like a freight train that can’t be stopped either and all I have to say is that last night I dreamed that I was lying in bed watching a movie on television – ha, as if that has ever happened!…
I’ve often wondered why it has taken me so long to get to these conclusions in my life. Well, not conclusions per se, more like my life’s framework – there are no conclusions, even at death. Then last night I was watching the penultimate episode on the In Treatment DVD where Paul sees Walter for the first time; Walter, a CEO with all the ticks of a God self-image. And Paul said this: Paul: It’s…
I spoke with my life coach today and I highly recommend her. I went through the list I had just posted on what I want in life and told her that I have been trying to figure out my whole spiritual self in the sense of how I orient myself in the world. For example, do I subscribe to the do all you can and then let the universe handle the details, or do I…
“Ask for what you want and be prepared to get it.” – Maya Angelou I want to be healthy and my hair to grow again. I want to sell the LaLa and be done with this dream. I want to learn to take better care of myself. I want to raise Tin to be loving and loved as well as self-actualized. I want to live in truth. I want to stop reaching backwards and forwards…
E told me the other day that she wants to explore the role of a caretaker with me. The problem in therapy with caretakers is they seldom take care of themselves. I have the solution – Hashimoto’s Disease – it is a relentless reminder to care for yourself even if every fiber of your being keeps going back to the familiar pattern. The reason is that you simply don’t have the emotional, physical, or spiritual…
So Bam Bam went to a good and loving home. At least that is the way the story was going. When the couple was here speaking to me, the guy asked me what happened to my hair and I told him. He then showed me his scar that went all along his face and head. When he was six years old, some boys hit him with a brick to steal his bike and he had…
I’m moving in a week and Nicole at New Orleans Petcare posted a note because I can’t take the cats with me. But so far there have been no takers. Today I was jumping into the shower and heard someone speaking to Bam Bam outside the front door. I wrapped myself in a towel and saw this couple sitting on the bricks talking to Bam Bam. I opened the door (yes, in my towel) and…