You arrive at a certain age and think you know the handbook, cover to cover, play by play, and yet you don’t. The reason you don’t is because you’ve changed and since what you do comes from what you know when you are entering something new – all you have is what you have experienced before to guide you.
What if everything has changed?
You wake up one day and so much time has passed since you were in a similar situation and now here is the situation at your doorstep, but you’ve changed, the circumstances have changed, the cause and effect have changed and honestly, the choices are no longer free fall or run.
I’m experiencing this metamorphosis right now in my life, a manifestation of what I opened my heart to, and of course, it’s messy, it’s fascinating, but it’s also interesting to step back out of myself and check how I am doing.
Pretty damn good, I must admit.
I love myself.
It has taken me so very long to fall in love with me, and I get to watch my own love in full bloom. I am in a situation I have been in so many times before, but I’ve changed so radically that vulnerability feels safe. This is rad, y’all! I’m loving it.
