Everyone has an opinion
If you’re brave enough to live your life as an open book then you have to be prepared for it to be interactive in this postmodern life. When I was married to S and living in a house and working at my job there was little anyone could contribute to the tight knit story except maybe the child issue. But it seems in this single life an entire cadre of onlookers have an opinion about what makes me tick. S believes I have a penchant for hinging on men that offer nothing almost like I want to prove them wrong that they have nothing to offer – an inherent obstinacy. G’s theory is that I am scared to be alone so merging is the goal in and of itself in order not to suffer solitude. T suggested I might be needy and should try to find out what it is I need in order to fill the void. N declares often that I have never been alone so I just don’t know how to act. But I’ll take my mom’s opinion – yesterday after cracking a rib, she was laid up on the sofa with her swollen feet elevated. She had just lit a cigarette and she threw her head back and said, “Investigative Reporter for Wall Street.” I looked at her. “I like that way that sounds,” she said. Then she lifted her head and said, “Honey I am so proud of you. Even if you took away the Investigative Reporter for Wall Street part, I am proud of you. I can remember holding you in my arms. There is nothing like that feeling in the whole world – to be one with your child. I want you to have that in your life.”
My new carpenter is a conundrum – he wants to know every little detail of every little thing – but he is fantastic! He gets it done in the parlance of the day. But he’s only here till mid July then he is off to Michigan – “no reason to stay for summer” – and already walking around the bayou this morning the heat was weighing Arlene and I down like a ball and chain we dragged through the grass.
I’m anxious to get back in my canoe and feel the breeze on the water.
June 10th, 2006 at 12:15 pm
Hey Rachel,
Where did you get your canoe, and where do you put in when you take it out on the bayou?
I used to do a fair amount amount of canoeing when I was a kid, but I thinking once I move back to N.O. it’s going to be a useful thing to have since we’re probably gonna flood every time it rains hard anyway.
June 11th, 2006 at 5:30 am
The canoe was abandoned on the bayou near my house. You can put the canoe in anywhere on the bayou. I definitely think a canoe is a must have for anyone living here after what we saw with Katrina – and actually a canoe is great to have for any occasion – I am looking forward to many canoe rides in my future.