Courtship

So last night we head off to Swirl in the pouring and cold rain and as planned we all show up and are happy to be inside and be with each other. I look across the room right when I walk in and catch sight of someone who makes my heart pound but this time I am calmer because nothing is resolved and I have no new information – so operating on old information, I still feel the flames lick but I don’t have the knee-jerk response which is to respond – someone suggests you are manipulating me – but I can only be manipulated if I allow it. So I stare back and ask you if you are trying to penetrate me with your eyes and you call me insane and compare me to your crazy family. We move to the left, we move to the right, and still you are trying to slice through me with your eyes and yet you say I have so many gates up. Gates? Who uses this word to describe boundaries, walls, obstacles? Gates? Gates can be opened, I think, but don’t say. You’ve had too much to drink – I can see it your eyes. But I am getting too heavy, you say. So we move to the left, we move to the right. I offer levity. You offer my shoes in a bag from the back of your car. I want to tell you something, it’s on the tip of my tongue, but you have told me nothing new to make me want to say it. The gate is closed till further notice I think as my lips brush yours and say goodnight. 

Here is my horoscope this morning – why is this happening?

You locked eyes with someone recently who you are going to see again very soon — are you nervous? Don’t be. They are more interested in you than you think, although probably not in the way you envisioned. When it comes to getting to know them better, don’t overdo it. Don’t share everything about yourself in the first minute and a half. Let things unfold slowly and naturally. You should be evaluating them just as much as they are evaluating you.

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