Recreating Oneself
Finished the movie – What the Bleep Do We Know – and highly recommend it. My brother sent me a letter that was somewhat loving but ultimately scathing and said where do you find redemption here with this story – he offered his own where to find it – which ultimately I reject – but it set in motion my thinking about how others perceive reality versus my perception and how to hold onto what is my thinking versus the other in the face of sometimes enormous backlash.
This movie offered other insights – that not only is it a thought process but it is a chemical processs. E and I have spoke at length about what is love – and ultimately – there are some areas of mystery that are hard to understand. But in the film, they talk about the concept of love and how our idea of it is stored in the neuro net of our brain and it is a combination of ideas, thoughts and feelings that we build models of how we see the world outside of us. And the more we see, the more we refine that model. We then tell ourselves a story about the outside world. But that ultimately the neurons form a neuro net which essentially are nerve cells that fire together and become wired together – i.e., if you practice anger, frustration, victimization daily – you give reason for these things in your life. But if you disrupt that thought process your nerve cells break the long-term relationship of that indentity.
In adulthood we operate in an emotionally detached way as if today were yesterday. So that addictions arise – addiction being literally something we cannot stop – and if you cannot control your emotional state you must be addicted to it. So how can anyone person say they are in love with a specific person? They are only in love with the anticipation of the emotions they are addicted to because that same person could fall out of favor the next week by not complying. Heroin uses similar receptors as our emotional addictions. But we can correct the course by understanding that the universe is larger than we thought. We can dream better and when we do, old concepts start to fall apart – feels like a nervous breakdown but we have to entertain the expansion of rewiring our brain to a new concept. What am I addicted to? you ask yourself and then What will I lose because I will have to experience withdrawal from the addiction by enlarging to a new concept.
So the pact again becomes waking up in the morning and deciding to create my day – manifest reality – which is quantum physics in action – develop a gift of intentionality – very similar to flip it to the good that S and I speak of often. While acknowledging choice you move towards enlightenment and to pursue knowledge without any interference of addictions.
So instead of looking in the mirror and believing negative thoughts – you look and decide to see possibilities. Like June Carter Cash said “I am just trying to matter.”
And thus springs redemption.