Ash Wednesday
So yesterday was fun, but today it was back to work in earnest along with the myriad to do list that has to do with the LaLa. Nobody showed up for work today – go figure. Well Louie finally did but he didn’t finish – go figure. I bought a new king size bed and it is showing up tomorrow – woo hoo. I borrowed sheets from my mom until I can get the bed outfitted.
I brought all my fiction over and put the books up on the shelves. That felt like a nice accomplishment.
I had a mini meltdown when the bank told me that I didn’t qualify for a jumbo loan today – then they called me back and said actually I could qualify if I borrowed more money – enough to make you pull your hair out.
I worked in the tower all day today and it was funny having people show up and come up here while I was sitting at my desk. Dave and Steve looked more excited than I did about my being up here. They’d like to see the money they are floating me on is probably a lot of it.
I’m this ** close to getting in all the way – and I’ve made a vow to change my attitude and quit griping about all the things that go wrong in a day or don’t get done and focus instead on the beauty of what does work and how lucky I am. H dropped into my apartment at the Can while I was loading up boxes of books and wanted to know if I had a smoke handy. He said he marvels at how I just go and go and go – he can’t believe my stamina.
Well I marvel at how relaxed the rest of the world appears to be instead of me. How do they do it?
Relax is going to be my new mantra and goal.