In the new version I learned that my need to do everything for everyone left very little room for everyone to be anyone. So the new me is all about giving space. I also know that focusing on something too much tends to make it suck the life out of everything else around it too. I went to bed on Friday consumed by the latest uncertainty on the adoption trail and even had told T when we went to bed that if this doesn’t happen, I’m done but we woke to a brand new world – a phone call with yet another option (remember Spock and Jim, I want that third option – well there it was and it was larger than life!).
That sucking sound you hear is the emotional riptide.