Are you feeling trapped?
I have never considered myself a person who would be or feel trapped in anything. After all I learned from a master, my father, that if you don’t like something, change it – as he did many many times over again. But I spent a good many days, weeks, months and years feeling trapped like rodentia – backed into a corner of my own making. And it took a health crisis for me to face up to the fact that my cage was killing me slowly.
Everyone needs that psychological moment to act on a vision and mine came when I realized that the person who was speaking was not me – even though the words were coming out of my mouth. I was going through the motions, pretending that everything was okay, when it really wasn’t. Not at all.
There are not many people willing to walk from everything and most of the ones who do that are labelled crazy or troubled at best, but I can tell you from my own experience, sometimes you need a revolution to bring about great change. And great change was needed.
I don’t worry anymore. I don’t worry about much at all. I don’t plan too much either. Worry, for me, was waiting for the inevitable to happen and it kept happening – so everything that I kept worrying would happen, would, and then I would worry some more. Planning, for me, was planning for the point in my life when everything would be okay, would be manageable, would quit churning. That day is not coming. Yep, it’s true, it’s not coming.
I received my first check for a workshop I conducted today!
The plumber came to fix the toilet and I didn’t have to pay for it.
My iPhone blitzed out losing all my data and I just shrugged it off.
Do you feel trapped? Trapped by a job that is paying the bills but offering nothing to your mind? [imagine doing work you love] Trapped by a mortgage that has you handcuffed to a boss who is an utter idiot? [imagine being your own boss] Trapped in a relationship where your partner is afraid to own their truth? [imagine your own worth] Trapped by friends who don’t support you? [imagine the type of friend you deserve] Trapped by your own lack of imagination? [try meditation] Trapped by faulty brakes that can’t stop the spin? [repeat: try meditation]
It’s critical to re-evaluate where you are in your life and to take the time to give yourself a lube job, clean out those spark plugs, dust off that battery, and then rev your engines and put the metal to the pedal.