{"id":6238,"date":"2010-01-13T16:38:36","date_gmt":"2010-01-13T21:38:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=6238"},"modified":"2010-01-13T16:38:36","modified_gmt":"2010-01-13T21:38:36","slug":"fear-of-letting-go","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=6238","title":{"rendered":"Fear of letting go"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The theme at yoga &#8211; which I finally went back to after a two month hiatus &#8211; is om. Perfect huh? Om. It is everything &#8211; the universal vibration. I love when we om in class, it has such a great feeling.<\/p>\n<p>I am entering the afternoon of my life as I segue out of the morning of my life (Carl Jung divided a person&#8217;s life this way). The morning is all about I, about accumulation, about ambition, about acquiring. And the afternoon is about the search for meaning.<\/p>\n<p>During my 2005 mercurial spiral down to the underworld and my Phoenix rise over the subsequent years to be a woman of a certain age living in a house on the bayou with a career and some form of retirement and accumulation, I never stopped to question what I was doing. It was blind drive that put me on the path to making everything happen &#8211; constructing the LaLa, reconstructing my life, deconstructing my past.<\/p>\n<p>And now in the nascent stages of the afternoon of my life, I need to be able to let go of my attachments and instead sometimes I find myself thinking how nice it would be for Tin to grow up here at the LaLa, with this bayou as his morning view, with this community as his safety net, with this city as his teacher.<\/p>\n<p>How do I move into being more about meaning and less about material things in life when the LaLa, this patch of land that sits on the Bayou, this neighborhood where friends and neighbors have my back, where all of my fantasies and dreams collect in this basin &#8211; how do I honestly let go of it?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The theme at yoga &#8211; which I finally went back to after a two month hiatus &#8211; is om. Perfect huh? Om. It is everything &#8211; the universal vibration. I love when we om in class, it has such a great feeling. I am entering the afternoon of my life as I segue out of the morning of my life (Carl Jung divided a person&#8217;s life this way). The morning is all about I, about&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6238","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-main"],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1kHSD-1CC","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6238","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6238"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6238\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6239,"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6238\/revisions\/6239"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6238"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6238"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6238"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}