When you’re lost everything is a sign, and so read this and weep. I woke up this morning without the negative tape playing in my head that says YOU ARE UTTERLY ALONE AND HAVE MISSED THE BOAT AND WILL DIE THAT WAY and instead I heard the birds chirping. I meditated, had my coffee, and then wrote a post on my new blog and immediately had a response – read: there are people out there…
It used to be that you could tell me that you wanted to sit up till the wee hours of the morning and debate the population boom while drinking bourbon and I wouldn’t flinch. I wouldn’t. Now I’m hard pressed to know what I even want to do on my birthday because it’s out with the old and in with the new (and I just happen to be part of the former). A friend posted…
My horoscope has not changed for over a week. I think it is trying to drive home this point. April 29, 2013 Taurus (4/20-5/20) Growth is a good thing, but you should take a break from pushing yourself right now. Today will not be best spent challenging yourself or starting any difficult (if revelatory) conversations. Settle in to a routine right now, and find comfort in doing the same things in familiar patterns. There is…
I got myself all worked up about housing yet again and then last night tried to take it down a couple of notches. What am I waiting for? Entertaining friends all day and night yesterday, I had candles lit in the living room; I watched the streams of people moving in and out of Jazz Fest in the pouring rain and in the sunshine; I cooked breakfast for friends, served dinner for friends. In other…
Sunday was lounge for the lord and listen to my playlist called God on Sunday and watch the Jazz Fest crowd come and go through the rain. We walked over with Evan and Nina and got VIP passes backstage to hear Evan play with the Kid Ory tribute band. There is nothing like the stench of the Fairgrounds after the pouring rain.
I had to remind myself yet again while I sipped my black coffee out in the backyard this morning of what I am doing here. Answer: Living. Recently, I was caught up again in the lemmings’ path in the real estate market, which heated up and there was this GET IT NOW OR PERISH feeling about housing. I found a house, a lovely old queen on North Broad and I instantly imagined it gloriously restored…
A friend at the Green Market was telling me about her pregnant friend who had to suddenly move out of their apartment and find a house and has been frazzled. My friend said you should never rush into anything like that. And I so bravely said, yeah, I know. I don’t want to be rushed. That same evening I got the call to look at the house asap. It was in my neighborhood. It looked…
So yesterday started much like any other day. Get up, fix Tin breakfast, and after he was in school, write a post on my new site about the harrowing effects of racism in our society and then PAUSE, EMERGENCY, TAKE COVER, TORNADO WARNING came through my telephone taking away all the white noise and producing nothing but crisis silence. I grabbed my phone and sought shelter from the only place imaginable in this shotgun, Tin’s…
For me, God is not our father who art in heaven, no more than a hoary bearded dude on a stone throne, or a guy on a cross. God is Everywhere and Everything and Everyone All Mixed Up Together. Got it? Okay, so tell me how you are an atheist – not believing in God – not believing in yourself and all that is swirling around you? Truly puzzling. Now take today. I had a…