September 11, 2009 Taurus (4/20-5/20) Someone you love is thinking of you, because there’s no one else who can soothe and comfort them quite like you. In fact, your knack for calming even the most troubled waters is famous among your dear ones. And don’t even try to act like you don’t enjoy the position. What could possible make you feel better about yourself than making someone else feel better about their own situation? It’s a…
The rain is pouring down now, distracting me from my administrative chore and making me wistful and melancholic. Mom is stable – at a lower level, her vent at a higher level. I’m one foot into the weekend. Today is 9/11. Flashback to September 11, 2001, I was barely getting out of bed when my then mother-in-law called to tell me to turn on the news – we rose, we watched, we sank into the…
I was reading the 36 hours in Zagreb article in the NYT Travel Section the other day and felt that they missed the mark on certain aspects of Zagreb that I now miss. First the article neglected to mention Kras – perhaps the best chocolate manufacturer in the world. Nor did it mention the old cafe in the square’s center that has a curved grand staircase leading up to a second floor – it’s a…
The Swami says there are four paths people take – one is the person who seeks entertainment and another those who seek things – these are people who are trying to overcome pain. The other two are those who have questions and those who love unconditionally. There is also another type of people and it is those who seek blame. In the American culture of looking for someone to point the finger at it is…
The nurse called late today to say they needed to give mom blood as her red count was low. I asked if they needed me to give them blood and she laughed, and said no they had some. There is always the mention of well, we are blood, but honestly, I think some people are in your blood and some aren’t and the distinction is not in blood relations. I’ve met people outside of my…
Everything keeps getting blamed on my age. The troubles I’m going through with my mom. The hot flashes. The edginess. The fattening around the middle. The knowing more people who have died than I used to. But no one is crediting the good things to my age. The fact that I am happier than I have ever been in my life, present situation with my mom excluded. That I have grown into a career that…
I was at the doctor’s office trying to understand why all of these things keep going on in my body – from hot flashes to ghost cycles – she said, “Welcome to mid life.” I said, “I passed midlife a while back unless you think I am going to live to be 100!”
I was sitting in my dining room today having lunch with my aunt and uncle and going over the details of my mom’s care when I looked up and saw the woman across the bayou putting up a 4 foot by 6 foot hand painted sign that says I LOVE DUCKS. My neighbor comes out and sees it and says, “Money can’t buy you class.” Nor intelligence, I responded.
There are those who believe I am strong and can withstand everything, but the cracks are evident everywhere. In Portugal, at the last turn off that I missed because we couldn’t understand any directions, I lost it. Even T says, you are strong, and yet, when I hit my arm against the door the other day I thought I would have a nervous breakdown. And then I get up and decide not to go to…