Got up before the chickens – no rest for the weary – pouring rain – no internet – a/c not working – leaving – Loca anxious – Wolfie concerned – planes delayed – rental car a/c not working – segue to California… Valley of muted colors – reminiscent of the bayou on steroids with greens to musty browns, then suddenly looking at pheasants from all over China in coops at Cline Vineyards – and then…
3. YOUR DYING Nothing could stop you. Not the best day. Not the quiet. Not the ocean rocking. You went on with your dying. Not the trees. Under which you walked, not the trees that shaded you. Not the doctor Who warned you, the white-haired young doctor who saved you once. You went on with your dying. Nothing could stop you. Not your son. Not your daughter Who fed you and made you into a…
and the world seems to be unwinding – my coral ring from Mignon Faget not in my jewelry box, my brown Cambio staple for client visits pants missing from the closet, the a/c suddenly not working as we leave for California, no sleep with the neighbor’s light beaming in my eye like a rushing train headed straight for me, I awake to a thunderstorm and downpour – Louisiana, coming to wash us clean. in my…
The force is strong in you Luke – I feel that is what my aunt and uncles and others keep telling me. You’re strong. Well this year is aging me more than Katrina, more than my divorce, more than a lot of other things because my mother is dying, I’m trying to adopt a child, my work is all consuming and I can’t seem to stop the world for one moment and take a breath.…
The other day a neighbor made the comment that his neighbor was carrying around his old dog who couldn’t walk anymore. My neighbor said, “He should put the dog down, he’s a dog after all.” The next day friends of ours made a decision to put their dog down who declined rapidly, who was the dog they got after their other dog ran into the street and was instantly struck by a car and died.…
I went to a staff meeting today to learn about my mom’s prognosis. Not good. They have done all they can for her and are now moving her onto that final resting station – a skilled nursing home – where she gets to live out her final days. I went to visit one of the facilities and although I drove there with a heavy heart, and I have been through many of these places as…
More haunting dreams last night as I was holding a baby and trying to protect a woman from her abusive husband and had gotten in between them and he accused me of shielding myself with the baby as he was trying to shoot me.
There is a community of yogis here in the Crescent City that are attracting other yogis from all around the globe. Michele had said that because of the healing New Orleans needed after Katrina, the yogis are responding to the call. Certainly her Swan River studio has been a big draw. It also could be that New Orleans is a deeply spiritual place unlike its usual moniker as a place of debauchery. Whatever it is,…
I have been trying not to give into this sort of negative or tumultuous energy that has been in the air but I was speaking to a source of mine and she said, “I’ve never been so busy in my life, it’s exhausting.” Boy, don’t I know it. I wondered out loud if the earth was maybe spinning faster or whether it was my new found 50 years of age that was making everything seem…
These endless nightmares are interrupting my sleep – the anxiety of my mom’s situation and days that are too busy to relax all stack up at night into weird bizarre nightmares. Last night I dreamed I married Joe, my gardener, and got pregnant and was sitting on a stoop with a bunch of alcoholics and drug addicts all smoking through their toothless grins. I woke in a panic.