It’s hard to put aside the expectations that have accrued out of past experiences and desires and replace them with a new and improved version of dreams and desires based firmly in the present. But it happens. Joseph Campbell said we have to be prepared to set aside the life we had planned for the one that presents itself. But there is still a full archive of regret. I thought this was happening, or I…
When we were trying to get pregnant, friends stayed at our place and accidentally got pregnant while we were out of town. An unwanted but now welcome child. As we drum our fingers on the table waiting for someone to call us about adopting a baby, we are nervous about how to respond, if they will choose us, and most of all about finally meeting the baby we have been dreaming about. I like to…
This morning as I headed to the park, I was thinking about removing, erasing, censoring some of the negative loops that play out in my mind. Interestingly enough today’s yoga was about nonviolent confrontation, even within yourself. I was wondering how you edit your loop when you are still faced with the very negative issues that you are trying to override. But I digress, this morning, on my way down the bayou, I saw a…
Obama is expected to be in the 9th Ward on Thursday addressing an elementary school there and then he will have a town hall meeting at UNO. One of the few drawbacks of not getting the local paper anymore is missing this information – I could have registered and possibly gone to see him speak in person. In the meantime, I did just pay $17 for a new bumper sticker – it’s the Shepard Fairey…
Olympia Snow, one of the few Republican politicians I respect, has come through with backing for Obama’s health care plan. Excellent. The New York Times wrote: Senator Snowe, a Republican, Backs Health Care Bill Senator Olympia J. Snowe of Maine indicated that she would support the Finance Committee health care bill, although she withheld support for future versions of the legislation. She is the only Republican senator to have voiced support for the bill.
I came home last night from the gym in a downpour that rivaled any rain I’ve ever seen in my life. The streets were flooded in minutes and my truck was barely skating through the deep water. I came into the house – ready for some R&R, ready to plop down and read my book, the second in the trilogy by Larsson, and instead found myself waiting on someone who was supposed to come and…
A friend of mine in San Francisco was often fond of saying there are no answers in the back of the book we were given. And while that is mostly true the fact is there are answers to us individually. The moment we stop listening to what we should be doing, or how we should be reacting, and start listening to the inner dialogue inside of us, we find our way out of most dilemmas.…
We woke this morning to a silvery grey fog that hung and clung to landscape here on Bayou St. John. As Loca and I walked through the spooky park this morning, we marveled at how quiet the fog makes the world. It’s interesting because one of the lores of the South is that it is so hot people have their windows open and you can hear the private conversations for miles because voices travel easy…
My mom said today that she is sick and tired of this – and I don’t much blame her. She’s hooked to the medical machine and there is nothing pretty about that. I tell the nurses every day, you make my job look easy and fun in comparison. Sheesh. But meanwhile, while she is there, I’m the one with the rambling messages from my nutball sibling asking me what I did with a wicker table…
I worked on a book project for a guy one time who asked me why waste time reading fiction and I told him because you learn about life through fiction. Nothing could have been truer than just putting down the first in the Stieg Larsson trilogy, The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo, I realized that there are fucked up families everywhere. Thank god! Because I was starting to think it was just mine. At first…