A popular male singer who recently went from rags to riches was quoted as saying, “I still don’t understand it. If you don’t have any time for yourself, any time to hunt or fish, that’s success? After my week long journey and a lot of soul searching and deep dive conversations with trusted friends, I came to the same conclusion, more poignant now in this phase of my life, but really do I want get…
I’ve decided that I have to learn DYI. I always plant my own garden but this year, I hired someone because I had Tin and I didn’t have the two days to do the front yard that it takes and so I paid someone to do it. Similarly, these wood columns and their maintenance has been getting me cranky and so I’ve decided when this guy comes to strip, sterilize and finish them that I…
The travel home yesterday seem to go on forever and when I finally arrived I was so exhausted, but my energy renewed when it came time to lounge on the sofa and have Tin run back and forth and jump all over me giving me kisses and lots of hugs. I was also greeted with delicious food T had prepared – cauliflower, cabbage and Vietnamese pho. We even managed to stay up and watch last…
I was Skyping with a friend and talking about how I’m in a weird place with myself on time. T has her coffee shop time on Monday and works on Tuesday and Wednesdays are supposed to be my time to myself but Wednesdays come and I don’t know what to do – the other night I cleaned out my closet of all my high heeled shoes – two bags full of stilettos – what goes…
I walked behind a woman who was wearing a fleece jacket (yes the weather went from 91 degrees to 61 seemingly overnight here in San Francisco) and the back said: Destroy Change Rebuild I just told a friend to use this as a mantra. To go on an inner journey and not be afraid to tear off a layer or more, and to change, because the more you break through the accumulated layers the closer…
I went to see the Daniel Libeskind‘s Contemporary Jewish Museum – very understated either consciously or budget wise. I headed there late yesterday to see the Black Sabbath exhibit, which was an odd set up of a few bar tables and chairs with headphones and a play list all depicting black musicians singing Jewish songs. I picked up the CD anthology with Nina Simone to Johnny Mathis singing. There was a video projected on the…
I flew out here to California on a wave of anxiety about a lot of things that are going on in my life – a confluence of anxiety over my economy, sadness over my mom’s one year anniversary approaching, and some trepidation about what is next in my working life. An old boss of mine says that work can be defined in four levels: Passion Career Job Showing Up And you need to figure out…
The I Ching master I met with in Shanghai told me to guard against thinking too far in any direction. My brother told me the same thing one time, don’t think so much, honey. I slept well last night, deeply, and woke up in a groggy haze, with the fog still rolling out of the Bay. The fog is still there, folding up over the East Bay, but it’s not here, where I am. I…
When I got into town I met with a woman I worked with many years ago, she said “network” as her advice of the day in these times. Almost as if networking replaced plastics – advice Dustin Hoffman had in The Graduate – tonight after a long day that started at 3:30 this morning and a day trip to Los Angeles I just stumbled out the door to get a bite to eat and sat…
I’m walking the streets of San Francisco and the memories are tugging me down to the ground and saying GOOD LORD what happened? Who were you then? Who are you now? I remember vividly coming of age in this city. I recall turning the corner of Kearney and Columbus and running smack into Herb Caen and him writing about it the next day – he with the sparkle in his eyes which caused me to…