{"id":4544,"date":"2009-07-28T10:22:11","date_gmt":"2009-07-28T15:22:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=4544"},"modified":"2009-07-28T10:22:11","modified_gmt":"2009-07-28T15:22:11","slug":"may-i-selfishly-add-i-want","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=4544","title":{"rendered":"May I selfishly add “I want …”"},"content":{"rendered":"

When the adoption failed in May, we were dejected and did what any adults would do, we sought consolation in distraction – we planned a trip to Portugal. Little did we know that this disappointment was the beginning of a summer full of oh my god’s<\/em>, one after the other.<\/p>\n

Now that the trip – prepaid – to Portugal is hanging on the delicate balance of whether my mother can segue out of the acute phase, I find myself clinging to the trip’s purpose once again, the consolation prize for having no control over our destiny.<\/p>\n

The only problem is how soon our trip is coming up and how slow progress has been with mom – and so I’m trying to believe that I will roll with whatever comes my way since most of this is out of my control anyway.<\/p>\n

So today’s meditation on the Tao te Ching is particularly enlightening as it proposes openness = mainly to whatever comes – ommmmmmm.<\/p>\n

#12<\/p>\n

Colors blind the eye.
\nSounds deafen the ear.
\nFlavors numb the taste.
\nThoughts weaken the mind.
\nDesires wither the heart.<\/p>\n

The Master observes the world
\nbut trusts his inner vision.
\nHe allows things to come and go.
\nHis heart is open as the sky.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When the adoption failed in May, we were dejected and did what any adults would do, we sought consolation in distraction – we planned a trip to Portugal. Little did we know that this disappointment was the beginning of a summer full of oh my god’s, one after the other. Now that the trip – prepaid – to Portugal is hanging on the delicate balance of whether my mother can segue out of the acute… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4544","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-main"],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1kHSD-1bi","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4544","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4544"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4544\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4545,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4544\/revisions\/4545"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4544"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4544"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4544"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}