{"id":4436,"date":"2009-07-19T14:59:18","date_gmt":"2009-07-19T19:59:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=4436"},"modified":"2009-07-19T15:00:19","modified_gmt":"2009-07-19T20:00:19","slug":"after-all","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=4436","title":{"rendered":"After All"},"content":{"rendered":"

My niece (aka Miracle Baby) wrote and said she found a CD in her car with a song on it that put her in mind of me because she had just read my blog and caught up on mom’s crisis. The song is a Dar Williams song – I know Dar because she sings that great song All Men Are Liars<\/a>, but this is a much more touching song, called After All<\/a>.<\/p>\n

After All<\/p>\n

Go ahead, push your luck
\nFind out how much love the world can hold
\nOnce upon a time I had control
\nAnd reined my soul in tight
\nWell the whole truth
\nIt’s like the story of a wave unfurled
\nBut I held the evil of the world
\nSo I stopped the tide
\nFroze it up from inside
\nAnd it felt like a winter machine
\nThat you go through and then
\nYou catch your breath and winter starts again
\nAnd everyone else is spring bound<\/p>\n

And when I chose to live
\nThere was no joy
\nIt’s just a line I crossed
\nI wasn’t worth the pain my death would cost
\nSo I was not lost or found<\/p>\n

And if I was to sleep
\nI knew my family had more truth to tell
\nSo I traveled down a whispering well
\nTo know myself through them<\/p>\n

Growing up, my mom had a room full of books
\nand hid away in there
\nThe father raging down a spiral stair
\n‘Til he found someone
\nMost days his son
\nAnd sometimes I think
\nMy father, too, was a refugee
\nI know they tried to keep their pain from me
\nThey could not see what it was for<\/p>\n

But now I’m sleeping fine
\nSometimes the truth is like a second chance
\nI am the daughter of a great romance
\nAnd they are the children of the war<\/p>\n

Well the sun rose
\nSo many colors, it nearly broke my heart
\nIt worked me over like a work of art
\nAnd I was part of all that<\/p>\n

So go ahead, push your luck
\nSay what it is you gotta say to me
\nWe will push on into that mystery
\nAnd it’ll push right back
\nAnd there are worse things than that
\nCause for every price
\nAnd every penance that I could think of
\nIt’s better to have fallen in love
\nThan never to have fallen at al<\/p>\n

‘Cause when you live in a world
\nWell it gets into who you thought you’d be
\nAnd now I laugh at how the world changed me
\nI think life chose me after all<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

My niece (aka Miracle Baby) wrote and said she found a CD in her car with a song on it that put her in mind of me because she had just read my blog and caught up on mom’s crisis. The song is a Dar Williams song – I know Dar because she sings that great song All Men Are Liars, but this is a much more touching song, called After All. After All Go… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4436","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-main"],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1kHSD-19y","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4436","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4436"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4436\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4438,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4436\/revisions\/4438"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4436"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4436"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4436"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}