I had so many conversations yesterday that were floating around my mind as I lay down to sleep last night. But during a span of about 45 minutes, I kept stumbling into a similar theme – the first was about a friend who lost her 16 year old son, the second was about a man who sat hospice with his dying mother, and on and on in this vein. <\/p>\n
Last night I dreamed of a dead rabbit and I woke this morning hopeful that the rabbit having died means our baby is on its way to us. <\/p>\n
When asked yesterday, why in the world at 50 I would want to have a baby, I said that throughout my life 99% of the women I know had told me that having a child was the most wonderful thing that had happened to them in their life. One in California told me “children are a disappointment.” <\/p>\n
I want to experience being a parent even though I know that the day the baby is born, is the day the mother starts dying. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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