I fell in love with a man who looked like \u00e2\u20ac\u0153he walked out of a Patagonia ad\u00e2\u20ac\u009d who spoke in riddles and confused me just enough to take a magic carpet ride with him and he says he loves me, but is that love? Before my man spoke in absolutes and did not bend to meet me but when I left he cracked and he says he loves me still \u00e2\u20ac\u201c is that love? \u00e2\u20ac\u201c the memories fade of men before, back to a man who loved me through several lives then went nuts and committed himself \u00e2\u20ac\u201c but not before he broke my heart many times over \u00e2\u20ac\u201c was that love? \u00e2\u20ac\u201c who are these people who mate like geese \u00e2\u20ac\u201c I want love that feels like fire being put out with gasoline or do I? \u00e2\u20ac\u201c is that love? \u00e2\u20ac\u201c if I love a man because everyday he is here and that is how he delivers, but he forgets I am a woman who wants posies or how much Splenda sweetens my decaf or I come first \u00e2\u20ac\u201c is that love? \u00e2\u20ac\u201c if I love a man who makes my hand shake when I put lipstick on to meet him, who unsettles me just a little, and asks what else he can do for me, is that love? Sometime in the Pleistocene era I loved a man who would kill for me \u00e2\u20ac\u201c my dad died in \u00e2\u20ac\u02dc85 of a massive heart attack \u00e2\u20ac\u201c heart exploded \u00e2\u20ac\u201c he loved so intensely and I loved him back – a man friend exclaimed as we chatted by the fire in his high Sierra cabin that isn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t love, Rachel \u00e2\u20ac\u201c but it is love, isn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t it? \u00e2\u20ac\u201c big, volatile and fiery love \u00e2\u20ac\u201c too many girlfriends have told me they pine for but don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t have a love like that \u00e2\u20ac\u201c a nation of women who want love.<\/p>\n
I sat around a table last night and was surrounded by men \u00e2\u20ac\u201c one brought up his mother in a way that made me cock my head and listen. I wondered how each of their mothers had damaged each and every one of them in their own peculiar way. I thought about how love that jumps off the pages of a novel is so very different from the love that lives in the house next door. My mother had a dream my father was alive the other day and she woke up relieved to know it was a dream. Was that love?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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