I’m trying to understand this time thing. I mean I was at someone’s birthday party last night – they turned 55 – in 7 years I will be 55. What will I be doing? Who will I be doing it with?\u00a0
Right now some people have such huge importance in my life – they take up the real estate in my mind – will these people be at my 55th birthday party? Will someone be throwing me a surprise party?\u00a0
It all rattles my cage. I am trying hard to be in the present – to enjoy what life offers me today – which is a lot of great stuff – but I find myself drumming my fingertips on the countertops, pacing in a small circle, hoping, pining, longing, wanting instead of what I should be doing – breathing, enjoying, luxuriating in all that is good around me – love and happiness.\u00a0
It’s that feeling you have that you’re ready – you’re at the gate, you’re pawing the ground, you’re head is light as a balloon, and you’re ready to go – ready to start running and running like a prized stallion – but wait? no one fired the gun yet, no one agreed to the race yet, no one is opening the door.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I’m trying to understand this time thing. I mean I was at someone’s birthday party last night – they turned 55 – in 7 years I will be 55. What will I be doing? Who will I be doing it with?\u00a0Right now some people have such huge importance in my life – they take up the real estate in my mind – will these people be at my 55th birthday party? Will someone be throwing… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2161","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-main"],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1kHSD-yR","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2161","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2161"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2161\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2161"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2161"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2161"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}