{"id":21396,"date":"2018-11-29T21:48:12","date_gmt":"2018-11-30T02:48:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=21396"},"modified":"2018-11-29T21:48:12","modified_gmt":"2018-11-30T02:48:12","slug":"where-have-you-been-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=21396","title":{"rendered":"Where have you been?"},"content":{"rendered":"

I had a ritual once, it was that I had to write in this blog. I had to write in a journal. I had to record. Capture. Then I had a child and I had to write about that experience on another blog<\/a>. And then life got really interesting, so layered there was no way to sit down and write a paragraph or a line to describe it, so I crawled inside this cluttered mind of mine and started weeding out, purging, regurging, repurposing. I meditated. I walked. I moved. I shifted.<\/p>\n

My rituals have not aligned. My go to’s are not even recognizable. My own self has unfurled.<\/p>\n

I spoke today with a friend who has had a breakthrough in a memoir she has been writing for four years. She feels confident she has a book that is publishable. She thinks this is the next step. I say this without cynicism: I don’t want to know the next step because I’m fixated on the raising of the leg to make the step before it is a step before it is a next.<\/p>\n

I don’t know how I came to this perspective which is not one – it is a swirling mass of creation once again as if I too have just realized the mist is clearing and now I’m busy creating where once I was waiting.<\/p>\n

I’m not good at this blog anymore. I’m not good at writing, at journaling, documenting.\u00a0I don’t know what I want to say.<\/p>\n

The woman you see here lost all that she was, and she is becoming yet again.<\/p>\n

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I had a ritual once, it was that I had to write in this blog. I had to write in a journal. I had to record. Capture. Then I had a child and I had to write about that experience on another blog. And then life got really interesting, so layered there was no way to sit down and write a paragraph or a line to describe it, so I crawled inside this cluttered mind… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21396","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-main"],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1kHSD-5z6","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21396","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=21396"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21396\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":21398,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21396\/revisions\/21398"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=21396"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=21396"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=21396"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}