She wants to swim with dolphins, instead she swims through jello most days. She being me, of course. The one thing that I learned today is that there is always tomorrow – no need to put a shotgun in your mouth, because really there is hope.\u00a0
I have this secret thing going on right now where I just have a good feeling that it is all going to work out. That come 2008, I will be sitting here at the LaLa, my financial house in order, my health good, my loved ones happy, and a loved one with me – someone who matches my affirmation to a T – I marvel at how I wrote this blindly a few months ago:\u00a0<\/p>\n
How does it feel to be in love?<\/p>\n
Love is a desire to want to be with a person, to come to love them more than yourself, and to constantly want to learn more about them. It is a feeling that I love who I am when I\u2019m with this person and they are obviously and transparently in love with me \u2013 the person adds measurably to my life with fun, humor, insight, kindness, sensuality, touching and kissing, sex, spontaneity, dance and music, loves me for who I am and doesn\u2019t want me to change, and I am proud of who they are. A person who surprises me, who gives to me lovingly, who wants to delight me, who fits in easily with my friends and family, who is so easy to look at I want to look at this person all day.<\/span>\u00a0 She wants to swim with dolphins, instead she swims through jello most days. She being me, of course. The one thing that I learned today is that there is always tomorrow – no need to put a shotgun in your mouth, because really there is hope.\u00a0I have this secret thing going on right now where I just have a good feeling that it is all going to work out. That come 2008, I will be… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2095","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-main"],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1kHSD-xN","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2095","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2095"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2095\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2095"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2095"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2095"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
To think that this person appeared presto change-o into my life is a miracle.\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"