I am known to admit that placed in a room with ten men in tuxedos I would go home with the waiter every time. That could be because I’m attracted to the dreamer, the magic bean buyer, the pray-er. My second husband was want to say that the most moving thing he ever witnessed in his life was a goat giving birth and he described the event as if it happened long ago in a gypsy fable. <\/p>\n
So it is that despite all the knowing, I’m moved by this Sty who was playing the drums in church this morning and whelped up when Leonard Cohen’s Hallelujah<\/em> was being sung, as he was playing it, drumming on the cymbals with his finger tips and wiping tears simultaneously. Such a dreamer. A magic bean buyer. <\/p>\n Before experiencing the rock n roll church in Destin this morning for my<\/em> first time (more on this later), we were walking in Bay Town in the chilled night air and happened upon a four-piece raggedy band in what looked like a makeshift manger. Heading up the band was an older woman, with a weathered face and hair too long and too white, singing:<\/p>\n Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions You can change aspects of yourself – those dynamics that become knee jerk to such a degree you think they are too ingrained to wipe away – you can change these things about yourself, I tell you this from experience – it takes work, it takes practice, it takes desire. But, it can be done. Then there are aspects of yourself that you know do not have any rational value – who you are attracted to, who you attract, what you value, what you don’t. <\/p>\n I was watching Family Feud in the hotel room and the question was, “What would you say you did as a living to a woman to impress her?” #3 was CEO – I just shook my head – nothing would make me run away faster than CEO. Nowhere on the list did it say artist, musician, writer, poet, dreamer, hope-er, wisher, seer. <\/p>\n The qualities that carry me over the threshold into lala land. <\/p>\n Shel Silverstein wrote an Invitation<\/em>:<\/p>\n If you are a dreamer, come in, I think the difference in me at this time in my life is that I know what moves me, but I also know now I can enjoy my life without trying to place another human being into a role that was actually devised by someone else for some other set of circumstances in some other time – a role that I never really cottoned to, to begin with, for myself or my partner, and so it is freeing to hold what is dear and yet not contort to conform to what I should be with this person and who this person should be to me. <\/p>\n “As is,” is how Sty says he comes to me. “You gotta take me as is<\/em>, baby.” As is<\/em>, it is. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I am known to admit that placed in a room with ten men in tuxedos I would go home with the waiter every time. That could be because I’m attracted to the dreamer, the magic bean buyer, the pray-er. My second husband was want to say that the most moving thing he ever witnessed in his life was a goat giving birth and he described the event as if it happened long ago in a… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-20252","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-main"],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1kHSD-5gE","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20252","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=20252"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20252\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":20403,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20252\/revisions\/20403"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=20252"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=20252"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=20252"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nI keep my visions to myself, it’s only me
\nWho wants to wrap around your dreams and,
\nHave you any dreams you’d like to sell?
\nDreams of loneliness,
\nLike a heartbeat, drives you mad
\nIn the stillness of remembering, what you had,
\nAnd what you lost and what you had and what you lost<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
\nIf you are a dreamer, a wisher, a liar,
\nA hope-er, a pray-er, a magic bean buyer . . .
\nIf you’re a pretender, come sit by my fire
\nFor we have some flax-golden tales to spin.
\nCome in!
\nCome in!\n<\/p><\/blockquote>\n