On this Sunday – one day of my life, one page in my book – where the music from Voodoo Fest is dominating the otherwise languid air and the brown pelican dives repeatedly for fish outside in the bayou – I find my mind bouncing from topic to topic, not completing one thought before beginning another thought – the curse of even my Sunday afternoon carved up into a multitasking event.<\/p>\n
But where my mind keeps bouncing is what is intriguing me more than the fact that it bounces – it bounces, therefore I am – what I am thinking about is time and place and age and these sorts of intangibles that are never quantifiable with the quantitative. Well, at least not for me. <\/p>\n
My mind flutters around and lands on place – how long have I been living at the LaLa? I’m staring at the brown pelican as if he is an old friend. It seems I have never lived anywhere else. The Can? Pishaw, I can’t remember a night there. Marin? Did I live there? San Francisco – North Beach – Portrero Hill – the French Quarter – General Pershing – Napoleon Avenue – these places are all carved up as single image memories but when the camera rolls, it is here that I am – here that is home. <\/p>\n
And time, my love, my weakness – my fear of losing it – I feel as if I lost this weekend to excess when surely my daily affirmations speak about this – about how to guard against excess unless that is what I am seeking – and yet I know why the caged Rachel is moved to excess – no release of energy through her usual outlet – exercise – as always she needs to run, to jump, to move, to work through a restlessness that is so much a part of her metabolism, she’d be lost in neutral. <\/p>\n
Okay, enough third person for godsakes – how about age? – and this age I am at right now which feels the most natural age to be at – and yet ironically I am fighting this age with chemicals that peel my skin right off my face. How is it possible that I can connect with Jake who is 3.5 years old as if we have walked around the globe together? What made Flower seem like a kindred spirit even though she is half my age. What trick in nature is it that gives some people wisdom beyond their years? <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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