I was in the park on Monday and a woman approached me because she had had cancer and thought I had too. She showed me her photos of herself bald and I thought to myself while she was scrolling through her iPhone photos that she looked a lot better bald. <\/p>\n
Today, I woke at 5am and meditated and then had my coffee before reading through a number of emails that were left open to follow up on. I began the outline of a House to do list, a Work to do list, a Project to do list, and then I went to Pilates. I’ve signed up for a six-week refresher course and have realized that three years away from it, my core has gone soft as a jellyfish. <\/p>\n
The Tuesday green market is nearby, so I stopped for mustard greens, kale, strawberries, and fish and ran into a friend which turned into a coffee. This woman has always been my equal – she’s been married as many times and been a hard driving ambitious career crazed woman but recently she stopped – everything. She’s become a stay at home mom and her relationship with her husband of many years has entered a hallowed honeymoon state. She’s enjoying her kids, planning trips with her husband. She looks rested and calm. We talked about kid stuff and schools, and I left there feeling remarkably good. <\/p>\n
Then I came home and spoke to a source who I haven’t spoken with in a while but since he’s changed positions he is back on my radar and we reconnected on all of the developments that have changed media for good. I made myself a green shake. I’m trying to watch my calories and lose this middle puff inner tube that has appeared during my grapple with my moribund thyroid. <\/p>\n
Again, in the kitchen, watching my clothes hanging on the line, I came back to this feeling of being relatively calm. The weather was lovely outside, warm with a slight chill still in the air – spring – I’m excited about my new house and, let me repeat, relatively happy and calm. <\/p>\n
I picked up Tin and we went to the toy store to spend his tooth fairy money on a train. I loved watching him skip in and try to find what aisle had the trains. Then later at music, he jumped in my lap and said, “Mommy, I love you.” <\/p>\n
I’m not sure how we got here but I’d like to stay and sit with this place for a while. <\/p>\n