As I’ve channeled my energy towards acceptance and openness since this weekend instead of the boots on the ground I expected when I started this week, I’ve found myself in some sort of somber mood that is something short of paralysis. I don’t know what to act on, so I’ve become motionless, still, and sort of calm. <\/p>\n
Today though, I began my day in a heated argument on the bayou and ended the night with a note left on my car calling me an ASSHOLE – I sort of shrugged it all off as if I was on some mood altering drug. <\/p>\n
And I’m not.<\/p>\n
I started meditating again and I have become passive. It’s sort of where I am and it’s fine. It’s calming, it’s different, and it’s like being a zombie only different. <\/p>\n
We’ll see how long this lasts. My friend who called on Monday told me that not getting out of my pajamas after noon was a sure sign of depression and I said, I actually feel quite good. <\/p>\n
Paralysis gets you nowhere, but maybe nowhere is where you want to be. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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