{"id":17669,"date":"2013-01-30T21:36:17","date_gmt":"2013-01-31T02:36:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=17669"},"modified":"2013-01-30T21:41:27","modified_gmt":"2013-01-31T02:41:27","slug":"karma-and-what-you-make-of-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/?p=17669","title":{"rendered":"Karma – and what you make of it"},"content":{"rendered":"

A friend stopped by today, a singer who has that Abbey Lincoln sultry jazz voice. We were talking about karma – as I told her I just paid my debt for an affair I had now eight years ago – I paid that debt for seven hard years. So I’m done. I have no balance on my karma. She said do you really believe it was karma. I said since birth I was always someone who had instantaneous karma. So I’m sure that’s what just happened to me. I could never even steal a piece of gum where someone didn’t steal my car within hours. Payback is hell. <\/p>\n

\"Karma\"<\/a><\/p>\n

But as Lena Horne said and I really do love this quote, “It’s not the burden that weighs you down, it’s the way you carry it.” And so I think that is where my learning curve has had to kick in. Today I woke thinking I understood the day’s tasks at hand only to receive the most ridiculous request, which made me just throw my hands up and say fuck it. I had just been putting together a list of attributes of the house and who to call and what the paint colors were – seven years of my life’s blood – and what, not good enough? WTF? <\/p>\n

So I got in the bath. That’s right. I ran a bubble bath and I immersed myself in the six foot deep soak tub drowning myself in the soothing waters and just whispered happily, “Doesn’t matter if I stay or I go. Either way I’ll be fine. This much is true.” <\/p>\n

\"AnaisNin\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Karma, at the end of the day, is what you make of it. And though I’ve been in the throes of some horrific payback, this much I know is true. I won’t ever have an affair again. <\/p>\n

And as for all that has happened to me in the past seven plus years – I grew – I grew twenty feet tall, I’m an Amazon, and I am still growing tall – tall enough to eat the leaves from the trees like a giraffe. <\/p>\n

Oh yeah. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

A friend stopped by today, a singer who has that Abbey Lincoln sultry jazz voice. We were talking about karma – as I told her I just paid my debt for an affair I had now eight years ago – I paid that debt for seven hard years. So I’m done. I have no balance on my karma. She said do you really believe it was karma. I said since birth I was always someone… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17669","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-main"],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1kHSD-4AZ","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17669","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=17669"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17669\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17673,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17669\/revisions\/17673"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=17669"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=17669"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dangermond.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=17669"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}