Another beautiful day here – a long conversation with N that kept hinging on one thing that is the deal breaker with me – the one thing I refuse to compromise on – and so it is and so we are and so are done. <\/p>\n
Steve sees ashes, I see a Phoenix. <\/p>\n
——————————————–<\/p>\n
No Warning No Reason<\/p>\n
Because he left her, she must make him
\nsomeone she doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t love, rescripting as
\ndeception their hand-clasped walks at dusk
\nwhen she felt his was the hand of God
\nlinking her to him because she was
\nso blessed to be given this love
\nthis late in life. It must have been lies:
\neach touching word, all thoughtfulness,
\nhis shows of pleasure putting her first,
\nhis endearing sex talk that first
\namused her then got to her
\n(his hot moist breath the poison in her ear)
\nas he learned with seemingly selfless patience
\nhow to move inside her as no one ever had before.
\nHow can she change memories like these?
\nHe must have been lying
\nbecause the man who did these things
\ncould not leave her with no warning or reason.
\nBut she knows he wasn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t,
\nand, because she knows he wasn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t,
\nshe is stuck. No one can help her.
\nNo one can enter the sacred circle they made together
\nshe now wears as a necklace of fire.
\nHow can she obliterate the person he is?
\nWhat is she to do? She has to live.<\/p>\n
Michael Ryan<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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