The past couple of days have been rather good despite all the uncertainty that still exists in our lives. S came by this morning and it was mutually decided that I will keep the LaLa house and that probably makes the most sense. We came to an amicable split and now we just need to implement it. All the sadness from the earlier days is still hovering around us but unfortunately we can provide each other no comfort. He said he was having dinner with K last night and friends and saw N having the family dinner across the dining room. <\/p>\n
I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve found a place to get online and weather the lack of services here at the Can. So I will make use of that for the time being. N will take over finishing the house, which means B will be done once he finishes the porch. B doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t want to work with N but truthfully I think what he can do there has come to an end anyway. I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m hoping it means more speedy progress but not going to set my sights on any hard and fast date in my mind as that would just lead to anxiety that I can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t afford to carry around right now. <\/p>\n
It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s raining again but at least this time the outside doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t reflect the inside \u00e2\u20ac\u201c I think I have found neutral. I go back to whatever happens is meant to be and that is all we can put our hope towards. <\/p>\n
I picked up W this afternoon after school. He was in a wonderful chatty mood, affectionate and all smiles. He said L is a good baby, doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t cry. He keeps remembering pre-birth when he first found out about the pregnancy and he told me he was nervous and I tried to explain what being around a baby would be like for the first six months \u00e2\u20ac\u201c a lot of crying I said \u00e2\u20ac\u201c so he always tells me she doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t cry that much. He plans to dig a tunnel underneath his new house and only let select people in there \u00e2\u20ac\u201c he will have a scanner to only let good people in. Thankfully I made the list. He stayed through dinner and it was a love fest, lots of cuddling and laughing at Jimmy Neutron. He asked me where his parents were and I said at the movies. He asked which one and I said Brokeback Mountain. \u00e2\u20ac\u0153What\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s it about?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d \u00e2\u20ac\u201c I said about two men who are very close, they\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re cowboys. \u00e2\u20ac\u0153What are they up against?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d [don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t you love that he would ask this question?] \u00e2\u20ac\u201c I said well they are two men in love and there are conventional people who frown on the aspect of two men being in love like a man and woman. \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I see nothing wrong with two men loving each other.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d Nor should you I said. <\/p>\n
N and I are supposed to meet with S about the LaLa \u00e2\u20ac\u201c hide the rat poison. <\/p>\n
S admitted the chair \u00e2\u20ac\u201c the damn chair \u00e2\u20ac\u201c is after all, comfortable, but he wouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t go so far as to say he liked it. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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