Had I known which way this day was going I would have stayed in bed this morning \u00e2\u20ac\u201c but no, in the spirit of every day is a fresh new day, I hopped out, took Arlene to walk around the bayou with L and his dogs. Came home, spoke to my group about the new year and rah rah rah \u00e2\u20ac\u201c let\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s get fired up \u00e2\u20ac\u201c etc. \u00e2\u20ac\u201c and then it started: went by to see H about getting mom in the Can and she said mom\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s application was denied because post-Katrina she made too much money to get in. First strike. <\/p>\n
Then went to N\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s to get online and thought I was talking to her but she was in the back and didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t hear me and then came out and said \u00e2\u20ac\u0153you could have said hello\u00e2\u20ac\u009d and a look \u00e2\u20ac\u201c strike 2.<\/p>\n
Shine\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s office called and said first he can talk to me is the 19th \u00e2\u20ac\u201c so all this hanging over me with LaLa and asset division goes with me to the Bahamas. Strike 3. <\/p>\n
Next was being informed of the vitriolic missive that suggested I should not be allowed to have any contact with W anymore \u00e2\u20ac\u201creaction: explosive \u00e2\u20ac\u201c saw red \u00e2\u20ac\u201c shut down puter – walked out door \u00e2\u20ac\u201c slam away in Blue. <\/p>\n
Then to mom\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s to tell her about the Can \u00e2\u20ac\u201c she\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s sick with the same cold everyone else has had and I felt horrible telling her. I tried to spin it in the best light I could \u00e2\u20ac\u201c that if S moves into LaLa, I might not stay in midcity, so this might all be for the best because then we can figure out a new plan.<\/p>\n
But the overriding question today has been \u00e2\u20ac\u201c why can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t anything deliver on the promise? <\/p>\n
Called N and apologized for miscommunication \u00e2\u20ac\u201c called other N and apologized for hanging up \u00e2\u20ac\u201c and then had long talk with S telling him where I am about LaLa etc. The best I could offer is we will figure it out. Everything is going to work out. <\/p>\n
I just wished I could really embrace that feeling. <\/p>\n
Meanwhile I removed the pic from my desktop; it is causing me nothing but agitation \u00e2\u20ac\u201c and did not respond to a flight fantasy that features me in a familiar outlaw position \u00e2\u20ac\u201c got a deep massage that helped calm the race car in the red provoked by someone who can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t separate a man from a boy \u00e2\u20ac\u201c wanted to send a note to V since there has been no communication but know it would be like trying to speak to S \u00e2\u20ac\u201c where anything I say incites more anger\/hurt \u00e2\u20ac\u201c best to let bdays slip by as well as more formal apologies \u00e2\u20ac\u201c received a loving note from D and told her to keep them coming. <\/p>\n
Now end the day with exercise \u00e2\u20ac\u201c focus on small things I have control over and let the universe handle the larger details that I seem to have no control over and dole out the path as the fates see fit. Everything happens for a reason, right?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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