I’ve never been the type who was altruistic or even thought about entering the medical profession – I’m just not that way. But when someone is in need, even a little bit, and they come within my radar, I suddenly feel like wiping the slate clean of anything I need and taking care of them against all odds. I’ve been in that mode the past few days – wanting to just do whatever it takes…
I was telling my mother about my day – the stress of work, the stress of the birthmother’s needs, the stress of too much to do – she looked at me and said, “This too shall pass.”
Yesterday, I was juggling way too many things and today it was no different. The one part work, the one part my mom in the hospital, the one part the baby and the waves of how that is being played out, and a never ending to do list, I just about became apoplectic at mid day. I can’t do it all. I’m not a one woman show! And I realized that everything I had been…
Since we’ve just pass the mark where we leave the light days and enter the dark days, it was more than appropriate for Michelle to have us do our practice today with our eyes closed. There is something about diving into a pool and moving with your eyes closed that has this womb like feeling to it. Upside down, eyes closed, I thought about yesterday evening. T was at her conference and the house was…
I called to get a gift certificate at Sears for someone and they said it takes two weeks to process. I said could you speed it up and they said no. I called the store and asked if I could just purchase a store credit and they said no. I called to just buy something at Sears and they said you can’t buy anything unless you have a Sears credit card. Does Sears not wonder…
We can’t buy one thing for a baby until we have the baby in our arms but it’s hard not to get our hopes up. Last time, we followed the same policy but I had bought two little onesies because I couldn’t help myself. When the adoption fell through, I gave them away. I wrote the other day that we are in the clear on hurricane season but learned today that actually hurricane season ends…
Last night, a half hour before our guests were to arrive as T’s conference gets underway, I took a glass of wine and went and sat outside and looked at that near full moon. Again, I counted my blessings by starting with a little ditty that my mother taught me when I was young – “I see the moon, the moon sees me, god bless the moon, and god bless me.” I felt a huge…
Michele said that John Friend had said this during his weekend yoga retreat here: All saints have a past and all sinners have a future. I love that!
It’s that time of year again, post Nov 1st (read: post Hurricane Season), and the heat is gone and the air is crisp and cool, and right at this time of year, when most of the country is starting to put on snow clothes, is when we count our blessings. A November stroll through the park is magical with the cormorants drying their wings in the trees, a Great Blue Heron standing in the shadows…
We don’t do sports in this house. T used to play basketball for Croatia but she hung up her towel a long time ago and has taken to a life of leisure. But the Saints – you gotta love them. 7-0. I spied a neighbor’s newspaper out in front and saw the headlines – we’re on a winning streak. I just hope they finally get to the Superbowl this year – it would be good…