I had to put on some Bob Marley and sing don’t worry, because every little thing is gonna to be all right. Life is full of things we can’t control but every day there is something to be thankful for and today I am thankful for it all. The nurse assistant at the hospital who is always kidding with mom overheard me talking to her about the adoption and said, “You’re kidding me! We all…
On returning from the high of our trip to South Carolina, I’m steeped back into the world of my mother. They are trying to get her off the restraints to move her to a nursing home where basically she will wait out the minutes, hours, days or weeks or months till she dies. Meanwhile, they are using Ativan as a medical restraint, so she is lethargic and confused. And I’m using half an Ativan to…
When I was at my mom’s bedside this afternoon, she kept patting the sheet down on her right side, and making a little indent in the bed with the back of her thin, bruised hand. I asked her what she was doing and she said, “Making room for the baby.” Everyone knows that W.C. Fields said, “Your parents fuck up the first half of your life, and your kids fuck up the second.” When people…
Back in July, when my mom called me at midnight because her heart was racing, I jumped in my truck and took her straight into the hospital. For the next eight hours we remained in a curtained off section in the emergency room while a drip tried to regulate her heartbeat. Around 6 AM when she was finally stabilized, I was slumped over in a metal chair, and she turned to look at me and…
We drove the long way home and made it in record time thanks to old Blue. I can’t explain to you what this trip meant to us, but I feel like a whole new world suddenly opened up in front of us and suddenly we’re getting closer to our dream. But here’s the deal – we went into this adoption with not a lot of expectations – we didn’t care what race, what gender, what…
I managed to speed through most of this trip as we were doing the James Brown turnaround version of a road trip – there and back in 72 hours. At one point, I was driving about 90 mph, which the truck does effortlessly, and I thought about roadtrips with my family. My father, who had an unnatural love of uniforms and all icons of authority such as diplomas, had a badge in his wallet and a…
The other day Scott was cutting my hair and I was telling him about someone who fell into an affair and he asked, “What did they trip on?” We both laughed but what I love about him is how hard he laughs even at his own jokes. Our baby might be born on the same day as him. Well we fell in love with fall and foilage on this trip – miles after miles of umber,…
Be thankful for living trust your luck, and march to the front like a soldier. Rudyard Kipling
What a trip! We travelled many miles through fall foilage with butterflies in our stomachs and spent the day with an incredible family. One of the best things we learned was that the baby was conceived while listening to Bob Marley. The second best was meeting complete strangers and feeling like you could adopt the entire family. Even Lucky the dog. Don’t worry about a thing Cause every little thing is gonna to be all…
We’re meeting face to face with our birth family this weekend – wish us luck!