Knock knock, someone’s home
After three months in the hospital, mom seemed to have found some new store of energy to rally in the past two days. What she keeps telling me over and over is, “I want to go.” Home is what she means.
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Month: September 2009
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Take this job and hug it
Last night, I had a nightmare. I had started a new job and got up early and got dressed and showed up at the office. There were three big wide pine plank tables and nothing but inboxes on them. I sat at one and two other women sat at the other. There was no phone. No computer. And all I had was this inbox and a big set of keys – the keys had little…
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Ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do
Be there, or be square New Orleans: Louisiana Stands with President Obama and the Obama Plan! Description: President Obama outlined a clear plan, the Obama Plan, to revolutionize the health care system by making health insurance better for those who have it, available and affordable to those who dont, and higher quality and accountable to all. New Orleans stands with President Obama. Please join us for a New Orleans style rally for reform on Sunday,…
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Come in, let me give you shelter from the storm
September 11, 2009 Taurus (4/20-5/20) Someone you love is thinking of you, because there’s no one else who can soothe and comfort them quite like you. In fact, your knack for calming even the most troubled waters is famous among your dear ones. And don’t even try to act like you don’t enjoy the position. What could possible make you feel better about yourself than making someone else feel better about their own situation? It’s a…
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Can this all be solved today?
The rain is pouring down now, distracting me from my administrative chore and making me wistful and melancholic. Mom is stable – at a lower level, her vent at a higher level. I’m one foot into the weekend. Today is 9/11. Flashback to September 11, 2001, I was barely getting out of bed when my then mother-in-law called to tell me to turn on the news – we rose, we watched, we sank into the…
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36 hours then Death
I was reading the 36 hours in Zagreb article in the NYT Travel Section the other day and felt that they missed the mark on certain aspects of Zagreb that I now miss. First the article neglected to mention Kras – perhaps the best chocolate manufacturer in the world. Nor did it mention the old cafe in the square’s center that has a curved grand staircase leading up to a second floor – it’s a…
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Crime and punishment
The Swami says there are four paths people take – one is the person who seeks entertainment and another those who seek things – these are people who are trying to overcome pain. The other two are those who have questions and those who love unconditionally. There is also another type of people and it is those who seek blame. In the American culture of looking for someone to point the finger at it is…
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Who you feel in your blood
The nurse called late today to say they needed to give mom blood as her red count was low. I asked if they needed me to give them blood and she laughed, and said no they had some. There is always the mention of well, we are blood, but honestly, I think some people are in your blood and some aren’t and the distinction is not in blood relations. I’ve met people outside of my…
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A woman of a certain age
Everything keeps getting blamed on my age. The troubles I’m going through with my mom. The hot flashes. The edginess. The fattening around the middle. The knowing more people who have died than I used to. But no one is crediting the good things to my age. The fact that I am happier than I have ever been in my life, present situation with my mom excluded. That I have grown into a career that…